update!!!!

Sep 25, 2010

Hello... I really don't like to write much, cus im not that good of a speller. lol  If you give me a book to read... I will read the hell out of it. ( Idk why im like that) Anywho my year mark was august 20th,  I WAS A LITTLE DEPRESSED AT FIRST. But now i'm over that, I guess, cus I thought I would be   smaller  then I was at my year mark. Once it  made a year I had made up  my mind that I was going to start going bac to the gym. After me not working out since April ( I KNOW SAD) I think I was so upset with myself, because I had been at the same weight for like 2 months. Once I got back in the swing of things, and got use to the routine. I had  LOST 14 POUNDS in  2 weeks time. THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!! My current weight today is.... 245THAT LEAVES ME WIT 60 POUNDS TO GOAL!!!!!! I'm not trying to get too skinny, so 185 is my goal!!!!

 Im already getting alot of people asking me am I okay. " WHY WHEN PEOPLE LOSE ALOT OF WEIGHT FIRST THING PEOPLE THINK THAT YOUR SICK"??? People tell me all the time that I look good they way I am, and that I should stop losing. I got to be happy and healthy for me, so it basically go in one ear and out the other. My mother was over to my house a couple of weeks ago. She told me I didn't look right in the face, she told me it was sunken in.  My mother really hurt my feelings, she was one of the one that use to always get on me about how big I was. At first she was so happy for me , but now I think she's jealous!!! IDK if it's cus we are the same size now, and she thinks I'm going to get smaller then her or what. But you best believe no one is going to STOP me from getting  these last 60 pounds  off.   I was blessed to have the surgery again, so I got to really do it right this time.  I'm not going to sit up hear and LIE.... IT'S HARD AS HELL, like everyone says, they have giving you a tool, and you better learn to work it.... or you will be in trouble. 

I know when it's over though im going to need some plastics, my arms and my stomach is horrible!!!!! Somedays I be so depressed when I look in the mirror and see all my loss skin, I still feel very fat at times. I think I really get happy when I put on smaller clothes. I'm currently in a size 18 pants, and size 1x to a XL top My goal is a size 16 pants, don't want to lose all my curves!!!! Since i'm losing much slower now i'm going to set my goal of losing these 60 pounds till March 2011. Keep your fingers cross for me. Imma let yall go, since I have talk your ear off

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