Pegy-J
Where to start. I am a 41-year-old married mother of two wonderful kids. Morgan my daughter just turned 16 and is constantly on the go. John my 3 year-0ld is pretty much on the go too. I should be such a skinnier person just from running after him but for some reason I am not. I have been happily married to Brian for 6 wonderful years. We have a beautiful home out in the country here and I wouldn't have it any other way. My life seems so perfect, I have all I need right here, loving/supportive family, my parents live just up the hill from us, we are all fairly healthy. My mother does have MS but she is not really sick from it and is still able to walk on her own for the most part with the help of a cane. So many people don't have the things I am lucky to have so when I start thinking about me and how I want this lap band procedure I sort of feel guilty about thinking of myself when so many others are worse off then me.
I have struggled with my weight for my entire life. My dad was always heavy and mom used to say I took after him. Neither my older brother nor my younger sister ever had a weight problem and I was always wishing I could have been more like them. I have tried every diet under the sun usually able to lose some only to gain all of it plus more back. People used to tell me I had such a pretty face. I guess that meant the rest of me wasn't pretty. Oh well.. Eight years I met my husband Brian, he made me so happy and he loved me for who I was. Probably a year after we met we began making plans to get married and I decided I wanted to lose weight before then. I joined this weight loss place, and I managed to lose between 65-70 in just pounds just before my wedding, unfornately not long after the wedding I managed to gain all of that weight plus probably 50 more pounds back. I didn't even keep the weight off enough to really enjoy being a smaller me. I think after that I sort of just gave up. I lost my job of 16 1/2 as the hospital I worked for went with outsourcing their dictation and my job became obsolete. Now I work from home doing medical transcription and I love it. The only part I don't like is that I sit here at my computer for 8-12 hours a day which doesn't help matter s at all. My lower back aches by the end if tge dat and I know some of is due to my work but most of it I am sure is because of my weight now. I am lucky enough right now to have no health issues though over the last few months just walking to the back yard to feed the dogs leaves me slightly winded. I'm miserable and I want so badly to get help with weight problem. I checked into lap band about four months ago but found out that our insurance policy has a clause excluding any weight loss surgery, talk about having the air let out of your balloon. I was so disappointed. Now, here it is four months later and I am considering it again even if I have to self pay. I called my Brian at work today and told him I really wanted it...I am so bound and determined to get it this time. He says we'll find a way. I pray that I can manage to figure something out. After reading all the stories online how everyone who has had the procedure feels and how they wonder why they waited so long to have the surgery done... Heck I haven't even had it and I am wondering why I waited all these years go do something.. No time like the present right!! I'm so excited, I can't wait to get started. So here I am .. My very first step in hopefully the journey to change my life forever. Hope I can do it.
