diane, thank youso much for youre positive words. i know you have been through this just because you described everything i am feeling right now, i have been so edgey, and emotional, i am so confused right now, because for so long this is all i have wanted, now its like i am irriatable. i know this to shall pass, so when i read your post, of course i cried,,,lol.... but i do want to say thank you for making me feel like i am not crazy...lol...take care and god bless. peggy