aemusevi
3 days....
Oct 01, 2009
Ok, so my time is approaching... (doesn't that just sound like the end... lol)... Seriously, I have been waiting for this time and it's literally 3 days away. And oddly enough, I'm emotionless. It almost just doesn't seem real.. It's hard to explain. I assume that as I am driving to the hospital, that will all change.A nurse from the hospital called yesterday to let me know what I expect and what time I should arrive at the hospital and things like that.. And then she told me about the shot that they are going to give me... and I almost started crying at the thought of it. She mentioned that when I get to hospital and get settled, they'll give me a shot in the stomach... once in the morning... once at night.. and another Tuesday morning... the shot is to make sure that my blood doesn't clot. Did anyone else have that? Is that something standard? Do they numb it up first? OMG! The thought of that makes me shudder.
I'm ready for this.. I'm ready for the change.. I'm ready to actually see my exercise make a difference. I'm ready to actually have energy to exercise. I'm ready to chase my girls thru the park and play with them without having to take a break to catch my breath... I'm ready to walk up the stairs in my house and not wanna cry from the pain in my knees.. I'm ready to be healthy... I'm ready to go to a normal start and fit normal clothes.. I'm ready to feel like I am pretty/sexy/hot... I'm ready to just feel good about me.. I'm not taking the loser way out, I'm accepting the tools to help me do the right thing for me... God has blessed me to understand that this is the right decision for me... regardless of what anyone else has to say... he blesses me every day.. on Monday he will bless me again.. he will be holding me all the way thru this surgery.. just as he has held me throughout my entire life..
Whew! I can see the loser's bench from where I stand! Save me a spot for my big butt! LOL .. but as I make room for the next person, my spot will get smaller
3 days... it is the end.. the end of the old me... I can't wait!
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About Me
MN
Location
26.6
BMI
Surgery
10/05/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 12, 2009
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