Amanda H.

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It's been about 2 years since I have been on here and in those past 2 years I have gained 20 lbs.  It hasn't been over night, it just kinda slowly found me.  I decided on Sunday to do something about this cause I was miserable with how I was feeling after just 20 lbs.  If I felt this bad after 20, what if I gain the other 100+ back???  Well,  I couldn't let that happen!!!  So, I went back to the basics.  High protein, low carbs, not drinking with my meals, taking my vitamins, and measuring my food.  These are all things that I know have worked in the past and I will succeed with this again!!!  So, here's the beginning of my journey.  I would like to lose 28 pounds ... then I would be to my goal which I never actually reached.  I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

Well, I'm in another stall again... such is the story of my life.   I have increased my calories, protein and water... eveything but exercise... cause I HATE it!!! 

I have lost a total of 134 pounds... I have 28 to go.  I am pretty excited about the "home stretch".  I LOVE shopping now.  Going to White House Black Market is my favorite thing to do.  I usually wear a large in their shirts.  I have not tried on their pants yet, but I am really looking forward to that.  It seems like everytime I go there I'm always with a lot fo people and they always are in a hurry to do something else.  So, one day I will go and spend a lot of time there.  I also go on ebay and buy some of their shirts on line... YAY I love it!!! 
I do have a problem with their dresses, though.  Even a size 14 is too small in the bust, I think the combination of big boobs and a wide chest... its just too much for the dresses.  Then, the problem is its too big on the bottom.  I guess I'll have to start buying shirts and skirts instead of dresses... pain in my butt!!  But, hey, its better than ONLY being able to shop at Lane Bryant... no offense... and having to buy whatever they have whether I like it or not cause theres no place else to go... and worrying that you don't gain more weight cause if you do you won't even be able to shop at Lane Brayant anymore... then where do you buy your clothes???  Ya know what I mean???  Its a much better life now!!!

Now on to head hunger... Damn head hunger!!!  Whats up with that anyway???  It just needs to stop... cause I can deal with real hunger... cause it usually happens around meal time... and I can eat a sensible mean and be OK.  But, head hunger... like I have to have M&Ms or I'll surely die... I cannot reason with other than... I know I shouldn't.. and then the thing is... it just makes it easlier to do it again.  So, I must plan my meals and don't anything thats not on the plan.

Now on to smoking... I quit smoking on Thursday the 14th of January... YAY ME!!!  I know I can stick with it this time!  I really haven't even wanted one!  And I'm not going out this Wednesday cause Devon has a line infection... so, I will stay home and give him his antibiotics and be a good mom... :)

I've been really bad about blogging!  Well, it's almost 9 months since my surgery.  I've had easy times and hard times.  I've lost just over 120 pounds.  The first 100 was pretty easy.  The last 20 has been a struggle... One pound at a time... two pounds up... one pound down... one pound up...two pounds down.  Makes you want to pull your hair out, that is if it doesn't fall out first.  Don't get me started on that...  But, don't get me wrong, I love the surgery.  I'm just having a pity party for myself tonight and apparently I invited you to join me... LOL  Maybe I should finish this on another night...

Well, its finally here!  Tomorrow is my surgery 2/19/08!  I have been so excited about this new start to my life.  Now, I am more scared than anyone could imagine.  I'm sure everything will be fine.  I just can't wait to post how much weight I have lost and reaching all of my goals.  It will be soon enough!  I'll try to keep everything updated.