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I had the lapband surgery on Jan. 16, 2009.  I am sitting here rededicating my life to my WLS.  I have somehow fell off of the wagon but I am ready to get back on track.  I have not been to the doctor since July.  I have gained 6lbs and am very disappointed in myself.  But I did realize something today, the last time I went to the doctor he did take some of the saline out of the my band and this could have something to do with my being hungry all of the time.  I have really got to get back on the wagon and restart my exercise program.  I did join the YMCA and I believe that this will help me reach my goals.  I never really understood why people say that someone that has wls can get down in the dumps but now I understand completely.  I sometimes wonder why I didn't go ahead and have that bypass procedure.  A lady that I know had it 3 months after my surgery and she has already lost over 100lbs.  I do realize that I do not need to lose as much as she does but it just gets a little discouraging when people look at you and say well so and so has already lost x# of lbs and they started after you.  I am really hoping that by joining this group I can get the support that I need to head into the right direction of my journey.  I actually have an appt to see my coordinator on Dec. 21 weather cooperating that is.  I really am wanting to talk to her so that she can help me get back to where I need to be.  I also have an appt scheduled to see my doctor on Dec. 24.  I really need a fill considering the last time I saw him we did take most of the fluid out because I was having a hard time getting my food to go down.  I know that he will not be able to do it at that visit but I am hoping that he will be able to do it soon.  I have to do it under fluro at the hospital so I am only able to do it on her OR day.  This feels so good to be able to put my thoughts down like this.  I have been reading a book by Cher Ewig and it is really helping me.  It helps so much knowing that I am not the only person that feels this way.  I don't want to be a disappointment to myself or anyone else anymore.  This is my promise to myself...... I will become the person that I am meant to be a person that is smaller and with alot more energy.  I will become the person that my children will be proud of and a person that loves myself and is not afraid to look into the mirror.  I will become that person, mark that down!!!!