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Every once in a while, I wonder how I would feel if someone I know from the "real world" finds my profile.  What will they think of me?  Well, anybody that knows me knows that I'm nuts, so that's a given.  But, all joking aside (can I do that?) it's a big fear of mine.  I don't want casual acquaintances of mine, co-workers, or even some family members to know of my surgery or my personal struggle.  I share so much of myself on this board.  My pictures are here, my secret life, hell, my frigging weight is here!  Ahhhhhhhhhh.  So, here's my letter to a person who knows me:

Dear Nosey Bastard:  You shouldn't judge me.  But, if you do, don't look at me as a failure.  Don't look at me as someone who can't control her weight.  Look at me as someone who has decided that she deserves more out of life than endless tears, medicines, etc.  I deserve a shot at a better life, in fact, I DEMAND IT.  Don't judge me.  I am your sister, your wife, your best friend, your co-worker, your in-law.  Don't judge me.  I don't need your approval because frankly, I'm more spirited than that.  I don't need your sympathy either.  I deserve what every person in the world deserves . . .I deserve a chance to live my life to the fullest.  And I have cried enough tears about my weight and struggled enough years about my health.  Once, I have my beautiful baby, I'll be back in the saddle again.  I may never be a size 2, but I'm going to be the healthiest woman I can be.  And right now, that's just right for me.  

Love ya.