Apple79
A week and 1 day to go before the big day!
Jan 09, 2011
Today and the last couple of days I have been finding it difficult not to feel sad. Support feels different when those closest to you merely supports you out of "obligation" and not for the pure existence of being happy for you. My closest friend sent me a text and told me that she had done some research on my upcoming surgery and the first thing she said was "people die from this"...she went on to say, "but not you you will do fine, we will support you because this is what you want to do. I don't try to talk you out of it because I know you are going to do what you want to do..." I sense the concern but the very thought of them not being "happy" for ME and the great ways MY life will change is saddening! I am however coming to realize that my "unique" support is not going to come from those whom I suspected; and I have just come into the realization that, that is okay. I will rest myself in God's hands and trust that because He has released me to do this, that He will sustain me through ALL of it; so this let's me to know that God will NEVER leave me, because this surgery is a life-changer.
