BabyGirl76
What I've Learned In The Past 10 days
Jun 02, 2007
Now that I am feeling better I thought it would be a good time to reflect on what the past 10 days has been like for me. while in the hospitial I used every drop in my PCA and asked for pain pills often. It was difficult to get up and do anything for the first 5 days post-op. I have learned about myself that I like the feeling of being full and now that I, at this point, do not have this feeling I'm not as happy as I want to be. Liquid diets suck, there is no other way to put it. I also don't feel hunger yet so don't know when to be eating. I drink plenty of fluids so nothing wrong there. At 10 days out today I have only lost 9 lbs sence surgery and for as much calories as I take in it seems like it should have been alot more. I would like to be able to lose 20 lbs by the end of June. I have family traveling to visit and I want them to be able to see a difference in my weight. I know that they have not seen me sence my highest weight 74 lbs ago but I don't see a difference yet so not sure any one else can either. I have learned that next to my hubby, food has always been my best friend. I have also learned that popcicles are not the same with out the sugar and broth is the most boring thing on the planet to eat.
The past 10 days have not been my happiest but I lived through them and that is what is most important for me to remember. My hubby has not budged from my side no matter what I have asked him to do for me. Without him this just wouldn't seem worth it. As things get better for me I know that he will be there and that is what keeps me going. I've babbled enough so untill next time.
The past 10 days have not been my happiest but I lived through them and that is what is most important for me to remember. My hubby has not budged from my side no matter what I have asked him to do for me. Without him this just wouldn't seem worth it. As things get better for me I know that he will be there and that is what keeps me going. I've babbled enough so untill next time.
Off To The Hospitial
May 23, 2007
In 2 hours I will be at the hopitial getting all preped up for surgery. I'm a little worried but I just want to live through this so that I can be with my family. Don't know what I would do without my dear hubby. Next time I'm here I will be a loser in a good way. Good luck to me!
Change In Color
May 19, 2007
In honor of my change just for today I've changed the color of my font. At this point with 5 days to go I feel like I'm loosing control so I changed the one thing no one can take away from me......my hair! I've went from blonde to brown, it's closer to my natural color. I have changed the color of my hair alot over the years, in fact I've had every color exept blue and that's only because I couldn't find a shade that I liked.
So now that I've made my tiny little change I do feel much better, at least for the time being. Tomorrow is a new day with new worries and it also on make 4 mare days to go.
I'm not sure I'll make it through these last days without a great deal of support. My poor hubby will have his nerves hanging by a thread by the time this is over. I guess it's a good thing that he really loves me.........alot!
Next time I'll be back to my regular font color.
So now that I've made my tiny little change I do feel much better, at least for the time being. Tomorrow is a new day with new worries and it also on make 4 mare days to go.
I'm not sure I'll make it through these last days without a great deal of support. My poor hubby will have his nerves hanging by a thread by the time this is over. I guess it's a good thing that he really loves me.........alot!
Next time I'll be back to my regular font color.
Obsessed
May 14, 2007
I have become obsessed with time. That's all I can think about is how much time is left before work is over, how much time is left in the day, how much time till surgery. I'm sure this is normal but I feel insain right now. I want it to stop but don't know how.
I'm always looking for things to do in the day to keep my mind off of the surgery. If I watch T.V. I'm keeping track of how much time is left in the show instead of enjoying it.
I told the surgeon that if there was an earlier date I would be glad to take it so this wouldn't happen to me. He laughed a little at that so I'm guessing that would be a big NO WAY. I'm packed for the hospitial already, just need my pillow and C-PAP machine. I have bought supplies for when I come home that I will need. I'm just plain out of things to do to keep myself busy. If I thought that they wouldln't cancel my surgery I would take up smoking, at least I would have something to do to keep my hands busy while at the same time kill brain cells, that way I would have as much brain to be thinking about all this time I still have to get past.
I'm always looking for things to do in the day to keep my mind off of the surgery. If I watch T.V. I'm keeping track of how much time is left in the show instead of enjoying it.
I told the surgeon that if there was an earlier date I would be glad to take it so this wouldn't happen to me. He laughed a little at that so I'm guessing that would be a big NO WAY. I'm packed for the hospitial already, just need my pillow and C-PAP machine. I have bought supplies for when I come home that I will need. I'm just plain out of things to do to keep myself busy. If I thought that they wouldln't cancel my surgery I would take up smoking, at least I would have something to do to keep my hands busy while at the same time kill brain cells, that way I would have as much brain to be thinking about all this time I still have to get past.
Two weeks to go....
May 09, 2007
untill surgery.....I had my P.A.T's today, nothing that was too mind bending. Two nurses went over things that will happen when I get to the hospitial on the 24th, the only thing that no one could tell me for sure is what time my surgery is happening that morning. I have to call the afternoon before and then some one will tell me what time I need to be at the surgery unit for the next day. I did see one of the cute bears that we get that they call "The Bariatric Bear" so we don't have to use a pillow to hold when we cough. I love it and can't wait to get mine! I didn't get alot of new information from this group. Most of what they went over I already knew thanks to the wonderful and very helpful ppl on OH.
After doing this all morning, I went behind the hospitial to see the surgeon, Dr. Hill. He's a great guy to talk to and very concerned with health and safety. Didn't need to spend a lot of time with him as I had no questions for him to answer. I did ask him about the protin bullets that I have ordered and he said that how ever I need to try and get my protin in that I should do it, so that made me feel much better about my choice to buy them.
I also got a list of things that I should have for after surgery so me and my great hubby went on a shopping spree to get chewable vits. and chewable vit. C. also got some buy one get one free protin powder in chocolate. I had to try it when we got home and it is VERY good! some other misc. items was gotten as well. My next buy will be a new pair of crocs (shoes) to wear while I'm' doing all that walking while still in the hospitial, and new socks too (don't want to have gross feet while there!). Other than that I think that I'm as ready as I'm going to be for this, or that's what I keep telling myself!
After doing this all morning, I went behind the hospitial to see the surgeon, Dr. Hill. He's a great guy to talk to and very concerned with health and safety. Didn't need to spend a lot of time with him as I had no questions for him to answer. I did ask him about the protin bullets that I have ordered and he said that how ever I need to try and get my protin in that I should do it, so that made me feel much better about my choice to buy them.
I also got a list of things that I should have for after surgery so me and my great hubby went on a shopping spree to get chewable vits. and chewable vit. C. also got some buy one get one free protin powder in chocolate. I had to try it when we got home and it is VERY good! some other misc. items was gotten as well. My next buy will be a new pair of crocs (shoes) to wear while I'm' doing all that walking while still in the hospitial, and new socks too (don't want to have gross feet while there!). Other than that I think that I'm as ready as I'm going to be for this, or that's what I keep telling myself!
P.A.T's
May 08, 2007
Tomorrow I go to the hospitial to spend most of the day to do me PAT's(pre. admit testing). then in the afternoon I have my first appointment with Dr. Hill. I'm afraid to get on the scale as I'm worried that I have gained weight and will be told that I can't have the surgery after waiting this long!!
When I went to my last appointment with the clinic on the 20th of April I had lost another 5 lbs. I just don't think that I've been as good as I could have been over the past 2 weeks. But as long as everything goes ok tomorrow then only 2 more weeks until my magic day!!
So I'm off to shower and get ready for bed, I can't take much more of my nerves tonight. Lord help me to get through it all.
When I went to my last appointment with the clinic on the 20th of April I had lost another 5 lbs. I just don't think that I've been as good as I could have been over the past 2 weeks. But as long as everything goes ok tomorrow then only 2 more weeks until my magic day!!
So I'm off to shower and get ready for bed, I can't take much more of my nerves tonight. Lord help me to get through it all.
The Other Call I've Been Waiting For....
Apr 02, 2007
I got a call from the surgeon's office and I got a date!! May 24th I will have Lap RNY. I go for all my pre testing on May 9th and see Dr. Hill later in the day. It seems like it's so far away. What do I do with myself to make time pass? I don't know where to start. So many thoughts going on in my head, all the things that I need to get done before then. So for now I'm going to relax and take a deep breath, then scream to make it all better!
The Call I've Been Waiting For....
Mar 29, 2007
Got the call this afternoon from the bariatric center's insurance guy that I am approved for surgery! Now just need to wait untill the sugeon's office calls to set up the date for all of my next appoinments for the pro-op stuff. I think that if I slowly start packing for the hospitial now that it will seem like things are happening, at least I hope so.
Untill I get my next phone call I still have another appointment with the bariatric center on the 20th of April that I have to keep just in case no one calls me between now and then. I know that I have mastered the art of waiting but I'm tired of using this great skill!
Everything is just around the corner from me, I just wish the corner wasn't so BIG that I still can see around it.
Untill I get my next phone call I still have another appointment with the bariatric center on the 20th of April that I have to keep just in case no one calls me between now and then. I know that I have mastered the art of waiting but I'm tired of using this great skill!
Everything is just around the corner from me, I just wish the corner wasn't so BIG that I still can see around it.
Another Chance To Wait
Mar 16, 2007
Went to the Dr. yesterday and lost another 5 lbs. But that's not the good part, my letter is being sent off to the insurance company for approval!!!! WoooooHooooo........ now here is another chance for me to practice my waiting skills. I almost have them mastered at this point. I've said it before and I'll say it again....... waiting is the hardest part of this whole thing. Can't belive that I have made it this far with out cracking.
Damn CPAP Machine.....
Mar 01, 2007
That's right I am the lucky new owner of a CPAP machine! I already hate it and I've only had it for 2 hours. Just the thought of having to go to sleep tonight with that thing mounted on my face gives me the willies. I will do it but only because I really want to have this surgery, as soon as I don't need it anymore it's out of here!!
It's just 2 more weeks before I start the daily calls to the insurance company. I'm very worried that I will not be approved and all the work I've done is for nothing. I'm sure that everyone feels this way before getting the letter of approval. I just sometimes feel that I will be fat forever and all the dieting will get me no where. Nothing will get done if I continue to sit here and whine about it so I'm off to go and walk on my treadmill.
It's just 2 more weeks before I start the daily calls to the insurance company. I'm very worried that I will not be approved and all the work I've done is for nothing. I'm sure that everyone feels this way before getting the letter of approval. I just sometimes feel that I will be fat forever and all the dieting will get me no where. Nothing will get done if I continue to sit here and whine about it so I'm off to go and walk on my treadmill.
About Me
Saranac Lake, NY
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43.7
BMI
Surgery
05/24/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 26, 2006
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