barbara g.

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Yaya! I have a feeling it will be dropping alot faster now. I am starting my divorce.. LONG STORY.

Starting to feel human once again.

Its been a long few weeks going through my cancer testing and being off the medications. I am finally starting to lose again. This time I am going to push harder. Thank you GOD.

I am currently going through some testing to make sure I am in remission from the Cancer. So I have to be off my meds (synthroid) for 6 weeks. YIKES! I put on 7 pounds the first week. Thankfully I lost it again then another pound or two. I am 232!  YAYAY. I have about 3 weeks to go before my next scan. I hope I make it that long..lol.  I have no energy left in me most days lately. I know this won't last forever. I can't wait until I can take my synthroid again, so I can get my life back. Peace. :D

I am back up to 250 pounds now. My legs are swollen. So hopefully it is water retention. I have been kinda down and out about it.  The past few days I have been confined to my chair. I have been in a lot of pain with "fibro".  My GP is new and does not know my body. He took me from 300 mg of synthroid to 150.  I know this is not the right dosage for me. I wish he would listen to me like my other doc did. I think I would know my body better than anyone else. Now I have to go through H*LL for the next 6 weeks on a dosage that will probably make me gain more weight.  HMMMMMMM. Also, I notice with each day the pain is more and more.  Have to wait six weeks in order to get my blood drawn so he can get the results and tell me that my synthroid is not right....lol.  I already knew this. OH WELL.. such is life. I am still eating small portions, and have included more protein shakes like my surgeons office suggested. Hopefully this will help.

~barbara

PS. Forgot to mention I had my G-tube taken out. Thanks goodness!

I am really having a bad night. I won't sugar coat anything here in my journals. So if you are reading, please keep this in mind before continuing on. 

Dangit, I was walking the dog earlier and almost fell in a hole the dog had dug. I was able to catch my balance but sure gave myself a jar trying not to fall. 

3 inches to the left of my belly button is KILLIN me!! OUCH, it hurts soooooooooooo bad!!! It is burning, and is sharp. Its been 8 hours and it feels worse. OMG!

I could fill this page with colorful thoughts but I won't. I am feeling very discouraged at the moment. Almost ready to call the DOC. My pain meds are not working. If anyone is reading, please wish me luck. Thanks.

Had to get out of the house so I traveled to JAX and went to the zoo. No smoke! It was soooooo nice there. I rented a manual wheelchair, and walked as much as possible with it. I took breaks and sat in the wheelchair. It was so nice to be able to get out without having to use one of those battery powered ones. Felt so good to be able to walk. Still feeling weak and in pain from the fibromyalgia, but overall did great. Can't waitttttttttt to get this stupid feeding tube out of my side...GRRRRRR.... Its putting a damper on everything. It is so tender. About a week or so left and I will be off my leash..hahahahah. 

I have decided to set mini goals. My first goal is to be 219 pounds. I was 220 before I got pregnant with my last. So for some reason, I feel that 219 is a good goal..lol. Don't ask me why. 

Then of course after that my next goal will be 199... Of course you can see why that one is so important. I haven't been 1 anything in a while. I would be tickled pink. Seems to be easier if I break it down in mini goals.

Hope y'all are doing great... PROTEIN PROTEIN, WATER WATER, and then more WATER..lolz.

-barbara

My goodness, how will I ever get my exercize in? The wildfires are so bad here that the sky was glowing yellow, with a dark shadow today. The wind brought ashes, and everything outside was covered in ashes. The ashes were so bad that I had to use my windshield wipers to get them all off of my car. My athsma can't take all of this. I hope we get a HUGE rain. 20 families were evacuated this evening.   I didn't bother to get on the scale today:(

Cool, I lost a pound during sleep..lol. Glad to see the scale is moving. This feeding tube still a pain in the bottom, and still itching. At least the scale is moving in the right direction. Whewwwwww:D

Ahhhhhhhhhh finally the scaled moved. I am now 254, I didn't think it would ever move:D  I was Finally able to use the bathroom after all this time. I am feeling much better. The hives are still waking me up in the middle of the night.  I feel like I have much more energy this week:D