Tomorrow's the big day

Feb 23, 2011

Well tomorrow is coming faster than I thought, and I can't quite explain how I feel. Of course I am excited but at the same time there is this lurking feeling that I will not lose all of my weight. I will be the one who only loses 40 pounds and then my body will adjust and say "hmm, I like just having 600 cals a day and I'm not letting anymore fat go!" It's funny how your mind plays tricks on you. Always second guessing your decisions that you have tediously researched and thoroughly sought through. I know that It is just that self talk that is always in the back of our heads, you know the one that tells us to the stuff we know is wrong. The little Devil that sits on our shoulder, you should just start your diet tomorrow cuz you blew it today, or the gym will be there tomorrow...that guy. I want to just flick him off my shoulder Well today is my only day of liquid, can't complain. Still waiting to hear from the hospital. Hope they call soon. I have most everything done, bags packed, proteins are here for when I get back, vitamins are here....all I need to do is shop for the family while I''m in the hospital. I have been stressing on my online class that I'm taking right now..not sure if I will be able to concentrate on it, I know I haven't been able to right now and haven't even had the surgery yet. Just worried I will be having a hard enough time adjusting, to have to worry about my philosophy class So I think I just might drop it for now. 
Ok well I better hit the store...I'll keep up on this thing , although I hate writing but I know it can be therapeutic so I will try it out! Wish me luck and see ya''ll on the losers side!

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