Betsy1
3/28/07
Mar 28, 2007
Tomorrow I have an appt with Dr. Singh in the morning. Im not expecting to get a surgery date, but additional questions answered and maybe a handle on the type of surgery I want.
My friend Kim is coming with me which I am happy about. Another ear to hear what I miss. Of course she met him already. As a matter of fact, she had surgery scheduled with him years ago and got scared, and of course heard from me along with others of the fear we had with her having the surgery. But I think if she really wanted she would have done it. Thats just the way she is. When she wants something she goes for it.
So I will post let ya know what happened. Im kinda scared and excited at the same time.
3/28/07 My virtual Model
Mar 28, 2007
DIDNT LAST
Mar 14, 2007
3/13/07
Ok so that didnt last long. But everyone here at work is on weight watchers so im forced to do it also. But I dont see any any weight dropping and if i do decide to go surgical i have to lose 10%.
I do however have an appt with the surgeon Dr. Singh. I called and complained that i want to meet him before i decide anyting. I mean support groups are great, these forums are great tooo. But not for nothing no one knows better then the surgeon obviousley. So they heard what I had to say and I have an appt on March 29th. They better not change it. Im soooo looking forward to answers. I have researched this for so many years that i could never get enough answers. So we shall see what happens.
And Im off........2/28/07
Feb 28, 2007
Ok so im writing this for myself. Not for anyone else. Not that no one can read it. But for me to keep track so to speak so that I can come back to this place and hopefully see how far I have come.
Its 1:27pm and i am at work and i went outside with some friends and was coming back. Usually take the elevator but today decided to take the stairs. Im up on the 3rd floor. But coming from the back of the building is like 4 flights because your actually lower then the actual first floor.
I did it...I took my time and breathed really carefully and didnt rush up. I had one more flight to go uyp and I felt like my legs were gonna just fall off. But I paused a few, took some breaths and continued till I made the 3rd floor.
Im gonna give this a week and see how this goes if it gets any easier. Im only giving myself short goals like the week of walking up stairs. Then I will go from there.
I was supposed to go to ww today but someone that i was going to go with cancelled. To be honest I really want to go with some one. Just like the surgery, If I had someone that stood by me and actually supported me that was "like" me. Then I would definetly do it.
Then on the other hand I read the post here and I see how many people still struggle. I know this is a tool before anyone says anything. But how is it any different. It really isnt to me. You still have to struggle. Dont get me wrong I want this like you wouldnt believe and Ive researched it for years. But I think if there is a possiblility of me gaining back then why even do it. Cause if I gain then what was the sense of altering your insides.
If i go it alone and not have wls then if i gain back later....then I wouldnt of altered nature. I want this so bad I can taste it. I actually when I look in the mirror do not see a fat person. Isnt that weird. I only feel that way when someone says something or if i cant fit into something.
It s tough!!!...I need to just buckle down and do this...thats it......either have the surgery or not. I still have to lose the 10% before the surgeon will see me so might as well do this.
I know people that have had the surgery and prior to them having it i talked to alot like my friends in ct. Now I dont hear from them at all. Friend from Maryland also had the surgery and I dont hear from at all....anymore. Miss talking to her though and I wondered how she was doing.....shes busy with jobs and all...but i had looked forward to seeing her updates....
anyways......wish me luck I hope that I can do this either way.
will post again soon.....
Its 1:27pm and i am at work and i went outside with some friends and was coming back. Usually take the elevator but today decided to take the stairs. Im up on the 3rd floor. But coming from the back of the building is like 4 flights because your actually lower then the actual first floor.
I did it...I took my time and breathed really carefully and didnt rush up. I had one more flight to go uyp and I felt like my legs were gonna just fall off. But I paused a few, took some breaths and continued till I made the 3rd floor.
Im gonna give this a week and see how this goes if it gets any easier. Im only giving myself short goals like the week of walking up stairs. Then I will go from there.
I was supposed to go to ww today but someone that i was going to go with cancelled. To be honest I really want to go with some one. Just like the surgery, If I had someone that stood by me and actually supported me that was "like" me. Then I would definetly do it.
Then on the other hand I read the post here and I see how many people still struggle. I know this is a tool before anyone says anything. But how is it any different. It really isnt to me. You still have to struggle. Dont get me wrong I want this like you wouldnt believe and Ive researched it for years. But I think if there is a possiblility of me gaining back then why even do it. Cause if I gain then what was the sense of altering your insides.
If i go it alone and not have wls then if i gain back later....then I wouldnt of altered nature. I want this so bad I can taste it. I actually when I look in the mirror do not see a fat person. Isnt that weird. I only feel that way when someone says something or if i cant fit into something.
It s tough!!!...I need to just buckle down and do this...thats it......either have the surgery or not. I still have to lose the 10% before the surgeon will see me so might as well do this.
I know people that have had the surgery and prior to them having it i talked to alot like my friends in ct. Now I dont hear from them at all. Friend from Maryland also had the surgery and I dont hear from at all....anymore. Miss talking to her though and I wondered how she was doing.....shes busy with jobs and all...but i had looked forward to seeing her updates....
anyways......wish me luck I hope that I can do this either way.
will post again soon.....
About Me
NY
Location
33.6
BMI
Surgery
04/14/2008
Surgery Date
Mar 12, 2003
Member Since
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