Billie Jo C.

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May 20th 2010

I went to a support group meeting at Rockwood clinic tonight. It was very helpful in more ways then one. I finally broke out of my shell, and decided to get involved with the topic. That was very helpful for me. I'm always so reserved and unable to talk face to face with others. Its something I'm going to have to work on. Baby steps for social anxiety...

So the topic was about the importance of water before and after WLS. I was informed by others there at the meeting to start right away at working on the 15/30 rule. So drink only water 15 mins before you eat and 30 mins after you eat. I'm going to start training myself now as recommended by others that were in attendance. Even if I don't have WLS it should be something I do for myself no matter what. I'm not a big one on soda but, I do drink lots of milk and juice. Not enough water like I should....

So as the evening went on they began to talk about people who gain back weight from grazing and drinking water with their meals. I muled my question over in my head and kind of chuckled to myself and asked; "Is there such thing as healthy grazing" lol I got a few laughs out of the room but, I was curious and had to ask. So the old rule applies... only in moderation. 3 square meals a day and healthy snacks in between. Any information is good information(well that's how I perceived the answers from others)

So all in all I felt good about tonight's meeting. Next time I'm going to stay a bit longer to talk to others (Sparkyjess I look forward to meeting her, I didn't even realize she was sitting right in front of me). I might write down a few questions to ask for the next time I attend....

Till than I'll keep forging forward and pray my approval reaches me soon. 

Quote: When the Power of Love Overcomes the Love of Power, Then the World Will Know PEACE!

Tomorrow is my hearing to see if I can move to stage 2 of the medicaid approval process (DSHS).... Which moves me to the 6 month supervised diet and consult with a surgeon.

I'm so very nervous. I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up but, the 5 page memorandum my lawyer wrote, is awesome. I have been trying for 4 years to convey the same thing to the insurance company and, he just sums it up in 5 pages. He's great!

I know I'm not going to get much sleep tonight. I'm afraid I might sound like a babbling fool. I've been waiting for 4 years to gain their approval and I can't make my brain be silent.

Aside from pleading mercy to the court there's not much else I can do, I guess. I'm just going to keep moving forward no matter what....

-Billie

Well this is the final week before Medicaid gives me the big answer....

They hold my life in the palm of their hands with an approval or denial. I'm praying they approve me because I don't think I have the will to keep moving forward. It feels like my life is spinning out of control. The stress alone is killing me.  It's been far to long since I had any kind of happiness in my life. This has been such a stressful time for me over the last 4 years, and I'll be glad when its over. I just hope it ends on a happy note.

I'm so very nervous about my hearing before the ALJ this Friday 14th of May 2010. She will be the one to render the final decision on my case. I'm trying not to get so overwhelmed by this but, its very hard....

I'm reading through some of the posts here on obesity help trying to keep a positive outlook on everything, so I don't completely freak out.

I really want this to be over so I can move forward to a more positive life. I've lost touch with myself and forgot what it felt like to be me. My dreams of being free of this burden are so close and within my grasps that its bound to drive me crazy.

But I'm hanging in there....
For better or for worse....

For Better I hope

-Billie

I'm still plugging away at trying to get approved through Medicaid. I have a lawyer through the CLEAR program so I'm really excited, and keeping my fingers crossed. I'm sure I will get the process right this time. I don't want to leave any room for error. I just wish it wasn't so hard to get the required help I need....

My Profile pic is old but, I love it because, my daughter is my inspiration. She's my reason for breathing.....


Quote: When the Power of Love Overcomes the Love of Power, Then the World Will Know PEACE!

I went and seen my Doctor on August 24th. She called and had the form faxed to the office to get me approved for WLS. We filled it out together and she faxed it off to Medicaid. She told me to call in about a week and see if I was approved to move on to the second stage of the approval process. In order to get approved I have to make sure I follow their strict guidelines.

I think I might see a glimmer of hope on the horizon but, I'm not going to get my hopes up just yet. When I get that call or a letter stating that I can proceed to stage 2 I'll be on cloud 9. Till then I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and my chin up. This will happen for me I'm not giving up.....

Friday May 29th 2009...

This was the best day of my life....
I went and talked to my New Dr about helping me obtain WLS for my health conditions. My next appointment is this June the 29th. She told me she is helping other patients with this as well. And she expressed to me that she will help me through this. I went armed to the teeth with lots of information. So I think she can see I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get this going. They called in a request to get me in so I can see a Bariatric surgeon. I'm just waiting on that phone call from Rockwood Clinics scheduling.  I Feel like I'm on cloud nine.....I have a big ride ahead of me, but I'm not giving up.

"Accept change, and change gets easier"

Sleep Study Update (11/14/06)

I went to my Sleep Study Test and boy was that an experience all in its own. It was like going on vacation and staying at a hotel with out all the frills and fun. The sleep institute I went to was located right next to the Freeway ((((cough)))) boy oh boy who ever thought of that was a real genius lol. It took me 2 and 1/2 hours to get to sleep. It would have been longer if they didn't offer me a mild sedative. Well despite all the tossing and turning I faced the Doc that morning bad breath and all and was told I have upper airway obstruction. I could have a surgery to correct it or have my tonsils removed in hopes of correcting it. He told me I do quit breathing at night but not enough to have severe apnea. Well that's good news I just hope it does not get worse. I made a follow up appointment so they can count up the number of times I quit breathing that night. I have experienced myself stop breathing just before I fall asleep but, I never really expected it to happen more then that in one night. So all in all I went, I seen and, I slept. And let me just say, it was no slumber party.