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 Oh my gosh so many amazing things are happening lately!! I hit my 50 lbs lost mark, that puts me half way to goal. Surgery was on March 27th so I couldnt be happier with my weight loss!! I need to start working out more, toning is going to become an issue very soon I'm affraid. SO..things Ive done lately. My big is getting married and we went to try on bridesmaide dresses, I got to order a size ten just like THREE of the other 4 girls. It was the most amazing feeling in the world when the 14 was too big and the 12 was tight. The wedding is in October so we ordered a ten!!! ALSO I bought a swimsuit. Like a real two piece normal people from Dillards swim suit. I feel FABULOUS in it and love love love going to the pool with my skinny minny friends!! Ive started getting hit on at bars and I'm so awkward because I dont quite know how to handle it. My always amazing family is encouraging and loving every single day and believe in me with everything they have! It has been an INCREDIBLE journey and I am so thankful for everyone who has been by my side. I started at 236, and weighed in yesterday at 179.0. At 176 I will have lost 60 lbs. I have energy like no other, i cant sleep in because I'm excited to be alive every single day and I enjoy being outside, working out, and going out with friends. Insecure me is LOST forever and I'm learning to embrace the brandnewlindsay on the outisde that now matches my personality on the inside. I posted pics from about 3 weeks ago I dont have anything to recent but I love these anyway!!! 

 So...Thursday the 29th was my 6 week post-op check up. Seems crazy to think about. I started at 236 but had been in a stall at like 208 forever. So I went to the doctor hoping for 205, I'd be happy with that...i closed my eyes when she weighed me lol She asked me if I wanted to know, and I asked if it was at least 205...turns out it was 200.0. RIGHT ON...but i was on my period lol so hopefully i can check off my goal of weighing less than 200 lbs with in the week!!!!! People are really starting to notice and I feel so much more comfortable with myself and SO much more confident!!! 

 Despite having lost 8 lbs since surgery and 21 overall I was having a down day today. To add insult to injury the not so considerate aunt flo decided to come visit yesterday. As a result I'm obviously not loosing right now. I am tired of the same like 5 things, broth, water, fuze drinks, poweraide, and jello. AND THEN, today was my first full day back in real life. School, class, errands, and work wore me out. I came home with a terrible attitude and frustrated and just mad. I complained to my mom and I feel bad doing that. She is such an amazing person and she feels horrible that she can't fix these feelings for me. However I'm glad she doesn't and is holding me accountable. She went to the grocery store and made DELICIOUS ministroni (sp?) soup and strained it for me. Just the change in flavor made the complete difference!! I have ZERO sensation of hunger, but I'm fighting the desire to eat that the period brings. My family has been so supportive and I"m SO fortunate. I'll update my weight in a couple of days : ) 

It couldnt have been a better day! Well it started rough. They wanted a urine sample for a pregnancy test when i first got here...failed at that so they had to take my blood. went back at 12:25 and was in my room at 2:30. My surgeon was amazing. Pre and post op nurses we fabulous and other patients ive met at support group had theirs today too so weve been walkin together! thought id let you know! thanks for the lovr and prayers 

I go in at 9:15 wednesday morning the lady from my surgery center just called me!! I'm so excited its unreal!!! 

 IT IS OFFICIAL!!! WEDNESDAY MARCH 17th!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!! Thanks for all of your thoughts, prayers, and support! 

 Went to the doctor on Thursday the 4th as planned. They said they want to schedule for the 15th or 17th of this month (NEXT WEEK!!!)...but I have to come back tomorrow (the 9th) bc I still have three or so pounds to loose. My dietician put me on a bars and shakes diet and Ive been working out like crazy and I've only lost .4 pounds. Is this serious???? What is going on? I dont want to be disapointed tomorrow if I weight the same as I did on Thursday. I'm kind of freaking out!!! Any advice would be SO appreciated!! I have a lot of stress right now about surgery and family stuff and that might be part of it but its frustrating to be stalling at this point already...

 The success of pre-op diet has me on a whole new mind track!!! I only have four lbs left and my weight loss is due on March 4th, so I should be just fine!! I already feel so much better I can't wait for this to keep going. I'm past the shitty phase and on into being positive and SO excited. Bad days come and go but I can see the surgery so close now its not worth focusing on anything but the future. Thanks to all of you for your love and support!!!!

 Okay so initially I was SO worried about not loosing the weight I needed by March 4th to schedule my surgery date. He told me 12 lbs and so far I'm down 5 or 6!!! My family and friends are being SOOOOO supportive. However, Im choosing to go home (to my parents house) more often than I ever have bc my mom will cook for me and the peer pressure to go to the bars and stuff aren't there! So keeping this up till surgery shouldn't be as hard as I thought, I think getting through the first couple of weeks was the hardest part!! 

 Pre-opt diet isn't too bad right now! Fell off the wagon saturday night when I went out with friends, drank beer out of habbit. Stupid. But I'm kickin butt this week and my awesome roommate has been working out with me! The "boy" is training for an upcoming mma fight and he keeps encouraging me to work out with him! Feeling very supportive by a lot of people right now. There are the few people I can feel my relationship changing with. I'm no longer going to be their fat funny friend, my mom says people will start seeing me as competition. WHOLE NEW FEELING lol I'm learning to focus on me. Love you guys, thanks for everything you have done for me and all your support!! Dr's appointment on March 4th and I have to be 12 lbs down, Ive lost 4 since last Monday!