Brighteyes3567
HMMMMM my story where to start, at the beginning I guess...lol Growing up was always a battle with my weight yes I was tiny most of my life but I had to fight to stay like that, I would go to Sudbury in the summer to spend with my grandparents and while I was there my granddad was always baking or my grandparents would give me whatever I wanted so when it was time for me to go home to my mom I was chunky, I mean double chin and all....lol My mom would fight to get it off of me the rest of the year cause obesity runs very strong in my moms side of the family. I would have to say out of all of my moms sibilings she is the smallest. As I became a teenage it seemed easier to keep the weight off I was a 100lbs most of my teenage life into early adult. When I was 20 yrs old I gave birth to my first daughter but while being pregnant I had put on 62 lbs, which was hard to get off but I was still young enough and managed to do it. Well than at 23 I gave birth to my youngest girl, Well the weight was alot harder to get off this time and I am still trying to do it. Well after my youngest girl was born her father asked me to marry him, thinking I had the world I said yes, but totally not stopping to think that he had a drinking problem, well somewhere between the proposal and the wedding it had come out that I had been sexually abused by my step father which I had supressed for most of my life which hit me like a rock. So than came the big day and we got married well within months of that my husband became very mentally abusive and a few months later with dealing with him and what had happened to me I had a nervious break down and spent some time in the hospital, knowing in my heart that I had 2 babies to get home too I did everything I had to do to get out and get my life back, I fought hard for it and within a year I had left my abusive husband and became a single mom, well one of the other reason we split up was he kept telling me I was too fat. This in its self was a task but like many others I did it. Well in that time I was also eating my way through alot of the stressful periods. Well also in this time of being a single mom I did alot of partying just trying to feel wanted and my friends helped me with that, I had been in and out of alot of realtionships with different kinds of loser which the way I look at it now is cause they gave me the attention I was looking for now weather that meant me supporting them or just putting up with being treating like crap, I also started hanging around some not so very nice people but at that time in my life they were good to me and I had fun, just not looking at the big picture. Just to let you all know though in this process of my life my kids were always taken care of to the full extent of my life most of this partying and stuff went on when they were at their dads house for the weekend, I will give him that much he was a loser as a husband but he was a good dad. So I did all of this wild stuff till approx 4 years ago this month actually when I was drugged and raped by one of these lovely people who I always thought was a friend at a place I had been going to for over 10 years and thought I was safe but guess I was wrong. Well after the rape I went through a majour depression and put on alot of weight from hiding, after a few months of this I finally said enough is enough and i'm not going to let this guy to continue to do this to me so I took my life back again. Well a few months after getting my life back I met this guy and we started chatting and set up a date, while we had been chatting just before out date we found out that we have known each other since we were 14.....lol can we said totally weird, we were in the same sea cadets corp. together, his older brother was actually in the guns crew with me and his parents have a pic of me from when I was 14 which really freaked me out....lol We went on our first date on my 37th bday and even funnier his bday was a couple of day before mine....lol We went on our date and had a great time and have been together ever since which is now going on 4 years. He has helped me to come along way in my life by just being there for me, he doesn't drink which is a total bonus and loves me for me, which has really helped me to start loving myself again and wanting whats best for me. So this is where I stand now with wanting to have this surgery done and get this weight off so I can be healthy and live the rest of my life with him and not worry about getting sick cause i'm so over weight.
Thank You for listening to my story I am sorry cause I know it is long but thank you, this has helped more than I could of ever thought it would of.
Carole
