Damn where do I start?

Dec 28, 2008

Merry belated Christmas and Happy New Year! Well a lot has been going on in my life. Please don't ignore the fact ladies that when you are losing weight you become VERY fertile!...My husband and I do not use protection because condoms are irritating, I weigh too much for the patch, and I can't take the pill while smoking because of some risk..blood clots I think...hence I WAS pregnant and went up to 221 lbs in being 6 weeks prego. Notice I say I was pregnant...thats a sour note and I'll leave it at that. Anywho after the pregnancy I was back to eating breakfast, like to brown and serve turkey links and OJ and cereal at school. I had not been eating breakfast before that, but rather having a protein shake. My portions in the afternoon and for dinner were larger than usual. I was drinking alcohol everyday. I was sneaking outside to take a cigarette break during class. I was a fucking mess. I just woke up one morning and said I'm sick and tired of this shit. I went to the doctor and feeling a little depressed about the now gone pregnancy bluntly asked for a happy pill and medication to help me stop smoking. My happy pill Celexa is great. Smiling all damn day!! Extra patient with my hubby and kids. My insurance would not cover the stop smoking meds . However I am one demermined gal. I got the patch!! I have been smoking and drinking damn near the last 17 years of my life. I am proud to say that as of Thursday I will be two weeks cigarette and alcohol free!!!!!! Thank you Jesus. It's hard as hell and I deal with temptaions everyday but I got this surgery to live a healthier lifestyle and to live longer and my wonderful brain came to the conclusion that there is only so much abuse any body can take. This is my temple. I should treat it like it is sacred and I am on my way one step at a time. Today make one week since my last fill. I weighed in at 214 and I am now at 200!!! Yippee Kayae MF!! Onederland I am beating down your damn door! I must admit this fill feels great. First meal is about 2pm. Hot tea for breakfast. I have been eating sugar but damn. I'm like no alcohol, cigarettes, and damn near no food. It's a miracle I have not chopped anyones damn head off!! OH, OH guess what else. I'm in Macys and grab a size 20, 18, and just for the hell of it a 16 Apple Bottom Jeans. Of course the first one I try on is a 16. It goes over the hips, I get excited, I go for the close, grab the zipper and damn near jumped through the friggin roof, 16's were on my fat ass and they looked GOOD. I mean my booty was like PADOW! Looks better than it did in High School! I had a tight Dereon sweater on with it and ran out of the fitting room to show hubby, making him take a double take of the booty, as I modeled it for him. I was dancing around like a little kid in the candy store! Then I went shopping yesterday and bought like 4 no name brand jeans in a 16 and guess what. I am like a inch away from being able to get them closed. I was like, dam this sucks. Then I realized Apple Bottoms probably makes their jeans a little roomy in the booty and hips for us shapely sisters hence the reason I was able to fit in the 16. Oh well I am not bring them back because I have lost like 14 lbs in a week so I figure I'll be able to get into them sooner or later. Gives me something to work towards. Being a teacher is great. I've got two weeks off for Winter vacation and don't know what to do with myself. Now that I'm bored as hell because of no drinking or smoking my new past time has become shopping! So as usual I'm broke as hell after a week of splurging. Feeling great and looking better, 2009 will be my year!! Can I get an Amen! Peace.