Surgery end of May *hopefully*..and.. dating issues Pre-Op

Feb 09, 2010

      Hey everybody. Haven't posted in a while. Been busy and stressed between changing colleges *again* , moving back home, and starting a new job. Crazy Crazy Crazy.lol. Anyways, a lot has happened. I have went for my consult, first meeting with nutritionist, and scheduled my sleep study. Woo Hoo! I can't believe this is really truely going to happen. Wow. :)
      So...with all of the insurance stuff moving forward so fast i have been thinking.... Okay so i usually date a lot and i get hit on..(even at 280lbs+...dont ask me how.lol ) Anyways...lately, i haven't had any desire to date or even begin "talking" to a guy. I just feel wierd i guess you could say. My thoughts behind this are...in say about  6-9 months im going to be ( at least i hope to be somewhat) a completely different person. I've always said... "The guys that I want, I can't get. And the guys I can get, I dont want"   And before you make me out to be a terrible and vain person understand something. I have been big my entire life. My self esteem (even though it might not seem like to others) has suffered. Because of this, I SETTLE. I settle for the guys that dont treat me right but have over looked it because i wanted to feel... loved i suppose. Im sick of looking at guys and instantly thinking that they are 'out of my league' because of my weight. So...basically the quote isnt about looks to me. Its about much more than that. 
              Well...that was my little rant or whatever i had to get off my chest.lol. But let me ask... am i the only one out here that doesnt want to date pre-op? 
Thanks for reading. :)

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