Butterflykisses455
I'm trying but....
Dec 01, 2011
This is just so hard!!! I was denied from Insurance (want the 6 month thing) and we're waiting on the husband's decision for WLS I hope he gets approved! But this is just so hard coming on OH (which I do everyday) I love reading everyone's post with all their information and pic's I love it! But I just get so much more depressed reading everyone's post "approved!!!" ugh :( Don't get me wrong I'm extremely happy for everyone I really am, I'm just having a hard time with it is all.I'm in pain everyday when I get home, everyone ask's me "why are you so damn cranky today?" Well try hauling around another body on top of your own you get tired, frustrated, & exhausted! I know it's my own fault I do no one is holding a gun to my head forcing me to put food into my trap but it's just soooo hard! I've tried for year after year to lose weight just too gain it back. Now I feel totally miserable at 285lbs. and to think I can't have surgery and need to wait.
I day dream at work everyday wondering what it would be like to be thin, healthy, thinking of things I'll be able to do with out effort just too snap back to reality and know it isn't going too happen :( I just needed to vent today I think, it helps to put it down somewhere knowing there are other people out there feeling the same I do knowing what I'm going through. A ^5 to all those that have had surgery, are getting surgery, and trying to get approved for surgery. I've always been told that "Good things come too those who wait" :) but dang......how long do I have to wait! LOL
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About Me
Zeeland, MI
Location
43.3
BMI
Surgery
04/16/2014
Surgery Date
Oct 21, 2007
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