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I haven't blogged in a while.  To be honest I've been kind of discuraged.  I had my 6 month checkup in the beginning of the month and he was ok with the % loss, but I haven't lost as much as most.  I just looked and Sept 26th weighed 199.8.  This morning I weighed 188.6.  Seeing that was discouraging, but looking back at my log, I went 6 weeks only losing 1 pound!  This week I lost 3!  Christmas week!  Amazing.  I feel so much better.  I got to fit into size 16 jeans at the Gap and 14 dress pants.  Amazing!  I'm going tomorrow to look for new dress pants for work.  The dress pants at the Gap fit funny because they were way to long and I'm 5'6!  I put on 16s and the sales lady laughed and said they were way to big.  Made me feel good.  I'm wearing a lg shirt which is great.  I'm big chested by nature, so I expect it.  I am slowely shrinking!  I've been trying to eat more protein and less "feel good" sugars, even in small amounts.  I never overdue anyways, but now I just don't do.  I'm going to get to the 160 if it kills me! lol! 

I'm so excited.  I'm not at my 4 month yet (although close) and I am in the 190's!  It's so amazing!  I truly am very happy with my decision to have the WLS.  Last night I was actually dancing with my boys in the living room and didn't get tired!  What a great feeling!  I have upped my exercise and am doing the rail trail.  Wed I did 3 miles!  Although it took about an hour and I only have 1/2 for lunch, so I had to scale back.  So, I do shorter, but more often.  I love the rail trail, it has markers, so I know how far I have gone.  I started by just doing small laps around the building, but now am doing full fledged walks.  What a freeing feeling to not be trapped by my body!  I still want sweet occasionally and will let myself have little bits, but it's not a daily thing, and definitely not much.  At first I really missed the food.  I now can eat most thing, but not much.  I can even have pizza as long as it's thin crust and I get ham, or something with protein on top. 

On a different note, my husband and I have been less cranky at each other.  I think my overall attitude has changed.  I never thought it was bad before, but I demanded allot from him (like housecleaning) because I couldn't do much of it for a long time without being tired.  I am now doing allot more of it, just because I want to, and I think it's taking allot of the stress off us.  I am a neat freak and want my house immaculate, although I've come to grips with my children being 2 and 4 and that not being realistic.  Oh well.  Another big change is me actually doing more with the kids.  I venture out of the house with them by myself more.  Part of it is because there older, but part is because they don't wear me down as quick.  I should mention my husband works 5 ten hour days and 1/2 day on Sat, so he's not around much anyways.  That means when he is here, he picks up the slack from me being tired.  I couldn't imagine if both of us were big! 

OK, that's it for now.  I had a chance to spill my guts and also be happy!  I plan on keep getting smaller and want to stay that way!  What a better life!

My appointment went well today.  The Dr. told me he thinks I'm having some dumping from sugars, grease, and dairy.  So it's partly Blood Sugars, and partly reactions from the food.  The greese he said is unusual, but that's not one he normally asks people and said I just may be more sensitive to it from the surgery.  I agreed.  Greese never settled with me anyways and my regular dr thinks I'm allergic to the fat in dairy and not the dairy it's self. 

As far as weight goes, he said at 3 months people are usually at 30-40% of there weight loss and said mine was 35, so I'm on target.  Doing the math on my own later, I think he may have said it wrong (41 pounds out of 97 is 45%).  It's the auditor in my I guess.  He told me he calculates goal weight to be 25% BMI which puts me at 150.  I'm down to 206 with cloths on.  He told me if I double what I've lost already he will be happy with that.  That would put me in the 160's.  I told him I would be happy with that too!  I'm going to try for 150, but I won't beat myself up if I only get to the 160's.  In high school I only weighed 147. 

I can't believe how fast time has gone!  I also can't believe how great being smaller feels.  It's the little things like sitting on the floor and having both kids sit on my lap while I read them a story.  That's the types of things that make me the happiest.  Instead of changing Ryder on the bed, I get on the floor with him and do it.  The whole feeling is amazing.  Yesterday I took Garrett to the fair, and we did some horse betting, along with taking him back on the rides and I wasn't exhausted from 5 hours of running around.  (keeping up with a 4 1/2 year old can be allot of work!)  He was a trooper running around until I wore him out and he told me he wanted to go home!  Imagine that!

As far as stats go, I'm not losing as fast as most (according to my nut) but she's OK with that.  I look at it like I've lost 43 pounds in 13 weeks and I'm super happy with that.  This morning I got on the scales and weighed 204 and that is starting my monthly "gift", so I'm guessing at the end of the week it will drop more.  I can't WAIT until I hit the 190's!  I'll be finding a way to celebrate that!  I went to Fashion Bug Sat and bought size 18's and XL tops.  I'm on my way!  It will be cool to not have to shop the "plus" size, but the irony is, Fashion bug has now combined both!  Go figure!  I didn't get the glory from that, which I was hoping for.  Oh well, that's the way it goes.  On the other hand, I'm glad there not singling out plus size people anymore.  I guess it's all relative on how you look at it.

Wow, time has gone fast!  I look at others that are going through the surgery and it doesn't seem so new anymore.  I've come to terms with it all now and am happy that I made the decision.  This weekend I lost 3 more pounds!  I'm always amazed how it comes off in bunchs, or not at all for a couple of weeks :) 

So, this morning I woke up weighing 208!  I'm almost to onederland!  39 pounds lost, 58 more to go!  I went to Fashion Bug yesterterday and didn't find anything, so scooted over to JC Penny's and picked up 4 XL shirts!  Amazing to be able to shop the normal size, at least in shirts.  My "ladies" are dissappearing fast!  Yay!  The pants were still 18's.  Some tight, some not.  I'm going to give it another month before I officially shop for pants.  My size 20 capris are just going to have to get me by.  I don't want to waste money on pant I may never get to wear.

On another note, support group is tonight.  I have made some great friends, and even aquainted with an old one, and it feels good to be able to talk to others.  Plus, sometimes I learn some informational stuff from others, and I love to learn new things.  TTFN!   

This morning I woke up weighing 212!  Yippy.  I went with a friend out of town yesterday and we got upgraded to a suite since they sold out of the regular rooms.  Anyways, they had a scale in the bathroom and I thought it must be wrong when it said 212, but mine said the same thing this morning!  I've been stuck on a plateau for over 2 weeks, and then literally 3-4 pounds fell off in 2 days!  I cut out allot of my strawberry flavored milk and cut back on some of the carbs.  My stomach must be holding food longer, because I'm waking up better.  The shakes still come, but not as bad.  Thank goodness for that!  I just plain feel better.

I'm so excited!  I'm now down 35 pounds since my liquid diet.  Somehow today it all seems more do-able.  I regretted it all at first, and now I'm glad.  The "social" part of it is still hard, but in the end, being fat is harder.  Yesterday my friend Sharon wanted to go to the buffet at the hotel, and I didn't want to pay the $12.95 to eat 2 bites.  That kind of stuff takes getting used to, but I just ate what I brought and moved on with my day. 

So, today is nice out.  It's about time since it's rained 90% of the time this summer and I plan on enjoying the day with my kids.  It's so nice to be smaller.  It makes me want to get outside and do more! 

Ok, I probibly should have started blogging before now, but I honesly haven't had the energy.  I totally enjoy reading everyone elses though! 

So, yesterday made my 5 week mark.  I am feeling much better.  The first 2 weeks to 1 month totally sucked, but I have gotten my body straighened out.  At least so I can deal with it.  My biggest issue has been the Hypoglocemia and how my body has reacted to it.  I have a great nutritionist though and we have made changes that do seem to make a difference.  Also, she thinks once my pouch stretchs a little more, food will sit longer and I won't be crashing so hard at night.

Backing up, I started my journey at 245 in January.  I lost about 10 pounds in the beginning, but weighed in at 247 my post-op visit.  I got hungry!   The day of my surgery I weighed 233 and today 217!  I seem to have been stuck at that for a little while, but that's ok with me.  My NUT told me I was losing to fast anyways and would be at goal in 3 months if I kept up the pace.  It works out fine, because I had to add carbs (heart healthy ones) to maintain control over my blood sugar.  Although it will slow up some of my weight loss, I'm happy to lose healthy and not be sick!  The sugar doesn't seem to be making me feel like I'm going to dump, and I'm happy for that!

All of this has been an emotional rollercoaster for me.  It has evened out though.  As I've learned what to expect, and how to control it all, I have been much better.  The hormone raction wasn't something I was expecting.  In the begging I was trying to figure out how to remorgage my house to have it reversed.  I don't feel that way anymore.  I'm glad I have done it.  Even if it is hard watching everyone eat while I spend 1/2 hour getting down a couple tablespoons of food.  I've even learned fish can be good if it's cooked right!  My mom came over and made me some and it went down, and stayed down, great!  She put some baby shrimp on it and it gave it a sweetness.  Who knew?