Carmen_Shanell

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Hey guys! It's been a minute I know. But been busy and crazy and off the wagon... will save the details for another post. But I wanna know who's going to the Bariatric Ball Little Company of Mary is having?

Holiday eating....mannnnnn. I don't even know where to begin. If it isn't bad enough that carbs are my downfall... I had the nerve to postpone my doctors appointment until after Thanks giving. I am so scared out of my wits to hear what my doctor has to say.

Since it has been cold here in the "Windy City" I have not worked out at all. My friend is going to let me "barrow" her excercise bike for six months to get me back on track. I love her. It is nothing like having a good friend in your corner.

I am promising myself to do much better for Christmas. My year is up next week and as of today I am -134 from my surgery date and -143 from my highest weight. That is good but I am sure it can be so much better.

I do thank God that I have made it this far and I feel so much better. And can do much more. Who would have thought that something as simple as being able to tie your shoes with out struggling huffing and puffing would feel like such an accomplishment. I have 82 more pounds to go. Slow and steady is good to me. As long as I am as close to my goal as reasonably possible I can live with that. 

I had been beating my self up a bit because I felt as if I had fallen off to bad before the holidays. I had made loads of plans to do this and that and just never quite got to where I thought I should be. Spoke to some friends who made me see what I did as a wonderful thing even if I don't lose another pound and encouraged me to not beat myself up but to keep working for what I want and to get back up and dust it off if I fall off from time to time. I am keeping my goal in mind.

Don't let the holiday season hinder your growth and progress. Don't beat yourself up and become sad or depressed. Keep your goal in mind and work it out and off. Look to your friends and family to support and push you because you cannot do it alone. Make a commitment to your self to get back on if you fall off.

I wish all of you a happy and healthy  holiday season.

Hugs and love!!!

But I am back checking in to give a bit of a progress report.

Its been  hard for me. Some people think the surgery is an easy route, but shit! I can tell you its not. So I fall off and me falling off results in me hitting a plateau. You all know what that means. At this point, post surgical, My doctor said I should be losing about 10 lbs a month but it took me like 2 months to lose about 12...not good.

Sooooooooo, I have been back on the protein shakes twice a day 5 days a week. So I have dropped some more pounds. Actually, I am quite excited to be under 300lbs. I have been taking the stairs, mind you I live on the fourth floor! I even took the stairs with a couple bags of groceries and its getting easier every day...even when Im tired.

My challenges have definitely been snacking and carbs... its soooo hard to stay away from them. Im not good everyday, but I don't beat myself up. I just try to do better the next day. And it has paid off because I lost 12lbs in 3 weeks. I need to have lost 60 lbs by the time I see my Doctor in November and I have only lost 30 since my last visit  so far so that means I need to lose about 30 more to keep me from having to hear his shit. So I will keep at my smoothies and ask yall to pray for me cause my Doctor don't hold no punches!!!

I also need to step my work out up because I fall on and off of that too. I have my yoga dvd for plus size chick called just my size yoga that I will start. As well as keeping with the stairs. I do walk. But I think my body has gotten use to it. So its time to switch it up.

I have to remind myself everyday ....I did not have this surgery in vain!

I haven't been walking everyday. I have been doing a little bit of snacking. It being the summer is my excuse. But I will start back on my protein bars twice a day on Monday and try to make up on my work out on tomorrow. Pray for me as I keep pushing to keep my commitment to ME!

Commit to you!

For my first surgical consult, my BMI was 72.9. And 100lbs later it is 55.3. How hot is that! Only 20 more points to go!

Day 1(6/14)- I slept 3 hours. I awakened almost reluctantly. But determined to not
allow another moment go by unfulfilled once I realized the sun. I got
out of bed after a while....dressed and hit the track at the park near
my house for the first time. I kept my word to myself. I pushed and
did 3 laps around with 5 pound weights. After the first brisk time
around I was like, wow! Did I say I would commit to 3 laps???? Yes I
did. And I did. I pushed again. And I feel the burn from my completed
3 laps. I feel accomplished. I kept the word I made to myself. Today
is the first day of a new journey. I will commit to myself, my
physical self again tomorrow. Subsequently the rest of my self will
benefit. One day at a time.

Commit to you....


Be a blessing and receive many...

Day 2(6/15)-I awaken to a storm and a headache. I took something and went back to
sleep. I awaken again and the storm had past. I took my
vitamins(multi, calcium, b1 and b12), put on my clothes and walking
shoes and hit the path. Three times around again with weights. Sore
arms and calves around the path. Determined to keep the commitment I
made to me. Everyday...one day at a time.

Commit to you!

Be a blessing and receive more.


Day 3 (6/16)- I awaken, took my vitamins and off to work I went. I had a protein bar
with coffee. I will let you know when I get off the coffee. I aint
trying to fake the funk but I can't do everything at once. I had a
protein bar and water for lunch. A small slice of pizza and a small
salad for dinner.

Right after I arrived home I put on my walking gear and grabbed my
weights and hit the track 3 times around.

Commit To You!!!!!

I have used this term quite a bit lately and decided I
wanted to elaborate on it. I will record my journey to better health
in my groups and hope that it will inspire you guys.

Commit to you came up when I was trying to figure out if I was going
to cancel/postpone driving someone around. A task that would have no
benefit for me. I decided to postpone the task and do something that
would benefit me. I am always committing myself to do someone elses
bidding. Neglecting me and the things I need to do. This includes working out.

I have made a million excuses in the last few months as to why I haven't started working out. KNowing it is necessary to keep the weight I am losing off and to start trying to tone up the lose skin. I keep breaking the commitment that I made to myself for better health.

Not this time. This time it would have been another excuse to do
something I know will not be easy to commit to. The saying goes "there
is no time like the present". So I made up my mind that committing to
get my physical health in order was a commitment I needed to make. So
every day I will make a conscious effort to work toward that goal.
Committing to walking that track is one I will make to and for me.

We bitch and moan about others not living up to their commitment to
us...but what about the commitment we break to ourselves.

Everyday I will commit to posting about my daily physical health
goal/accomplishment in an effort to inspire you and keep me on point.
Guess what else??? I will also record my failure to do so to let you
know we all fall short...it's the getting back up that matters.

So... set some goals and commit to achieving them...
Commit To YOU!