my support team

Mar 29, 2009

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT A BLESSING THIS WEBSITE HAS BEEN. I ACTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS... ME... SOMEONE WHO HAS REALLY NEVER HAD 'GIRL FRIENDS'.. I EVEN HAVE A ANGEL! VIVIAN! AND WHAT AN ANGEL SHE IS!
WELL, ONE DAY TO GO.. MY STOMACH IS KINDA SORE & I THINK IT IS STRESS... I HAVE SPENT HOURS TODAY AT THIS WEBSITE, JUST READING ALL OF THE BLOGS/MESSAGES./ AND PROFILES... I JUST READ SOMEONE WHO WAS WEINNING ABOUT BEING ONLY A 8 - 10 SIZE! LORD, SHE WAS A SIZE 3x A YR AGO.. OH PLEASE GOD, KEEP ME FROM BECOMING COMPLACENT AND UNAPPRECIATIVE FOR THE SECOND CHANGE AT LIFE THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME.. I BELIEVE THIS IS, FOR ME, A GIFT! THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL, LOVING GIFT THAT MY FATHER COULD EVER GIVE ME.. ACTUALLY, I THINK HE GOT DISTRACTED THE FIRST TIME AND HAD HIS BACK TURNED WHEN I WENT THROUGH THE CONVEYOR BELT.. I SHOULD OF BEEN BLOND AND THIN, AND BY MISTAKE I BECAME BROWN AND BIG! SO HERE'S TO A SECOND CHANCE...
I AM NERVOUS AND HAVE HAD TO PUT UP WITH CHRIS AND RICHARD'S STUFF REGARDING THIS SURGERY. I DON'T KNOW...RICH THINKS "I AM GOING TO GO STRONG FOR AWHILE AND THEN (QUOTE) GIVE IT UP JUST LIKE I GIVE UP EVERYTHING I DO AFTER AWHILE".. YA, WELL I ASKED HIM IF I MADE AN INVENTORY OF HIS 'CHARACTER DEFECTS' A DAY BEFORE HIS SURGERY!?? THAT SHUT HIM UP... I THINK DEEP DOWN HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO BE THIN, AS I WILL LEAVE HIM.."WHICH, I MIGHT ADD, WITH THE CRAP I TOOK FROM HIM TODAY, THAT MIGHT NOT BE A BAD IDEA!... MOVE OVER BACON, IT'S TIME FOR SIZZELEAN!

NO, I JUST WANT THIS OVER WITH.. IT IS LIKE 1000 CHRISTMAS EVE'S ALL ROLED INTO ONE.. WAITING... WAITING.. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP TIL IT IS TIME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL.. BUT NOW IT IS 10PM AND I AM GOING TO CLOSE AND PLAY SOME POGO AND GO TO BED! OH, JUST TO PROVE MY POINT, RICHARD ASKS TODAY "WELL, I JUST WANT TO ASK, WHERE DO YOU WANT TO SLEEP WHEN YOU GET HOME"... HOW THE HELL DO I KNOW WHERE I WANT TO SLEEP...CHEESE AND RICE.. MEN'S BRAINS MUST BE MADE OUT OF SPEGETTII NOODLES!

THANKS GOD, SO VERY MUCH, FOR THIS PRECIOUS GIFT OF LIFE AGAIN AND THANKS TO ALL MY NEW FRIENDS...MAY I NEVER TAKE EITHER FOR GRANTED!

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