Melissa D.

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Yea, yea, yea I know... Day 3 should've been back on May 10th or something right??  Well turns out day 3 never came.  May was an extremely bad month for me (as far as beverages go).  I don't know why I keep failing.  It's like I'm all gung ho and ready to get back in shape and healthy and then life happens/I get lazy and lose sight of what I'm trying to accomplish.  I'd like to say this time will be different, but I don't know that for sure.  All I can do is take it one day at a time.  I have found that boredom is my worst enemy.  When I get home from work all I do is sit on the couch and start drinking to "unwind".  All that unwinding has done me no good so I'm trying to do the opposite... 

Yesterday I woke up at 4:30 a.m. to do a couple of miles with my Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds DVD.  All was going good until the stupid thing quit working mid- mile one.  I was pissed, but instead of going back to bed for 30 minutes (like I normally would've done), I made a pot of coffee, took a shower, and watched the news until it was time to get dressed for work.  After having a few extra minutes to leisurely drink coffee and having plenty of time to get dressed and gather my things for the work day I found that I actually LIKE getting up early.  Go figure...  Last night instead of stopping by the liquor store, I stopped by Walmart and bought a new DVD player so I could do my walking this morning.  Then I went home, got dressed and went to the gym for TWO hours!!  My friend and I walked on the treadmill, did the Arc Trainer and lifted weights then we did an hour Zumba class.  By the time I got home all I could think of was bath and bed.  So yesterday was a success! 

This morning... the alarm went off at 4:30 a.m.  I turned it off and attempted to go back to sleep, but somehow convinced myself that I'd regret it so I got up and did a mile with the DVD.  I only did a mile because my sweet hubby hooked the player up wrong and I had to fix it, therefore only having time to do a mile. 

Tonight's plan... I'm meeting my friend at the gym at 5:15 and we are going to do the Group Power class (weight lifting) and depending on how I feel I may do the 6:30 Zumba class.  I may be going to the extreme, but I don't want any spare time to get bored.

Since I haven't had any alcohol in 3 days my eating is a whole lot better.  I've been trying out the meatless thing since yesterday and I actually haven't missed meat.  I do eat eggs and get my protien in other ways so I'm not too worried about that.  I might not ever become a vegetarian, in fact I don't really have the desire to, but I may at least only have lean/organic red meat once a week.  We'll see... one day at a time.

Today is day two of no alcohol and I'm feeling really good today!  I don't realize how much alcohol affects my life until I don't have it and feel "normal".  My appetite is normal for a GB patient, I get full really fast and easy, I sleep so much more sound, I don't wake up the next morning feeling funky or hung over, I don't crave carbs all day to level my blood sugar... The list goes on and on.  But tonight is Friday and this is usually the night of the week when my hubs and I feel like we can go crazy with the beverages b/c tomorrow is Saturday and we can sleep in, but NOT TONIGHT!  It's going to be hard b/c on top of it being Friday my hubs just found out that his dog that he's had for like 13 years has cancer.  We are going to have to put him down.  It breaks my heart to think of it... Our pets are like our children. I have to find a way to work through the emotions without the adult beverages.  Pray for me!

I did however make it to the gym last night.  I was planning on doing some weights and one of the cardio machines, but instead got talked into doing a Group Power class.  I had never done this class so I was kinda intimidated by it, but I think I really like it!  It's an hour long class that works every muscle group in the body---and believe me, I FEEL IT TODAY!!  And the best part is that I burned over 700 calories doing it.  Yea I'll be going back to try that again.  I was going to go to Spinning class tonight (another class I've never done), but since I can barely move from last night's class and this happened with the dog I'm going to leave work a little early and make my husband's favorite dinner.  The good thing about this dinner is it's a recipe I found in Southern Living magazine and it only has a little over 300 calories per serving! 

My goals for this weekend are no alcohol (of course), go to Zumba or Spinning tomorrow at 9 (hopefully I can make it, I have to take my himalayan cat to get groomed at 8:30), stay away from too many carbs, and possibly go to the gym on Sunday afternoon.

I hope you all have a good weekend!

I haven't blogged in SO LONG I don't even know where to start!  So I guess I'll start with where I'm at today....  I'm not sure how much I weigh today, but I was weighed on 4/13 at the gym I joined and the scale said 209.8.  I about died!  The trainer did my fitness profile and here are some of the other stats...  My body fat percentage is 43.4, blood pressure is 120/62 "Fair", and finally my aerobic fitness level needs work.  You would think that after finding all that out I would go to the gym religiously, but I haven't been since.  It's time to make some changes!

If you are reading this and are about to have surgery or if you have had surgery and are still in the "honeymoon" stage you may be asking yourself how in the world did this chic gain 40+ pounds??!!  The surgery is suppose to be a permanent fix right!!??  I honestly thought this would never happen to me.  I went into this thinking I would never have to watch what I ate or diet ever again.  YEA RIGHT!!  I went from 312 lbs to 161 lbs in 13 months with little to no effort.  Life was good!  I was skinny, my legs didn't touch (I had the thigh gap!), I looked good in EVERYTHING I wore then alcohol got in the way...

You may have heard of "addiction transfer".  Addiction transfer is a very real, very scary thing.  I never thought it would happen to me, but it did.  My grandmother died the week after I got married in August of 2010.  She was the first person I've lost that I was close to.  So on top of being married (again) and trying to get used to that I also had to get used to life without my grandmother.  After her death my mom asked my husband and I if we wanted to move into and rent my grandmother's house.  We agreed and then we were going through the process of cleaning her 4 bedroom, 2 bath, 2 car garage house out and moving for the second time that year.  Things were pretty stressful and that time and instead of managing the stress in a healthy way, I turned to alcohol.  It was my way of forgetting stress and unwinding at the end of the work day.  I never thought alcohol would make me gain weight like crazy!  I didn't realize there were SO MANY calories in it.  I couldn't figure out why I was gaining weight and gaining it fast. 

In June of 2011 I was diagnosed with endometriosis.  It's a very painful disease, one in which alcohol makes it worse.  But I used alcohol for the pain.  So now I'm using alcohol for pain and stress and unwinding and it has turned into a nightly/daily thing.  It's out of control and it's time for a change.

I don't have a problem with food and over eating.  I don't eat a whole lot of sugar and I never eat ice cream which used to be one of my most favorite things.  So the key to getting this weight off will be to quit drinking alcohol for good.  I can drink a pint of whiskey every night.  A pint of whiskey has over 1,000 calories in it  So yea that's why I'm so fat. 

So here's the plan... I'm going to write out a revised goal list and post to this blog daily (like I used to do).  Blogging helps me in a huge way!  I'm going to actually use the gym membership I've been paying for since March and I will try my damndest to quit drinking alcohol!!!!  I'll try to post a new goal list tomorrow, but today my goal will be to track my calories or My Fitness Pal and I'll be hitting the gym tonight and of course no alcohol!