What do you do when you feel your world is coming down?

May 16, 2010

Hey There,
My spirit is feeling a bit heavy right now and when I am in a space like this I find extreme comfort in writing.  So I feel like I have a million things going on and none of them have solutions...first thing is, I am working out with a trainer but have neglected my cardio over the past 2 weeks....I cant remember to tk the vitamins, drink the protein, drink the water and stay away from sweets...this is way harder than I thought but what do you do?  You keep it moving...2nd thing is, I have a 13 year old daughter with autism and I feel like for the first time in her life I cant care for her...me and my other 2 daughters have been prisoner to her disorder all of their lives and now I feel the resentment build up in my 16 year old and my 8 year old....what do I do? Just keep it moving and try to make the best decisions for them all...they all deserve a better quality of life but my being cant fathom putting my child in a facility even though I know it may be the best for her....I have no support from my ex husband or my family when it comes to my children so I know at this point I have a HUGE decision to make...third thing, my oldest daughter is going into her Sr year and I havent pushed her nearly enough.  She just applied for a summer program at one of the art schools here in GA and she needs her SAT scores in order to get accepted..well guess what? she hasnt taken the yet...i should know better but I've been so consumed with making sure I take care of myself I have let so many things slip...so now they say they will take her PSAT scores but I dont know if its enough to get her in...if she's accepted she will come out of this program with 10 credits toward her freshman year and gain automatic acceptance there...so we are waiting for an acceptance, what do you do til then?  Keep it moving....work in very stressful, the good of it is, we have grown almost 100% already.....sounds good and dandy but it is very hard when there's nobody in the whole organization who can do what you do so therefore, I dont get to take an adequate vacation...Job security? yea right, bullcrap is what I think....but what do I do? I keep it moving, cause if not, I will waste alot of time thinking about it and it will destroy my psyche.....I need to be in a positive state of mind to keep you all encouraged so I have to keep it moving...even though my world feels like its crumbling I have to keep it moving so none of the pieces which are falling kills me...
I pray that if anyone reading this feels overwhelmed like me, that God grants you a peace of mind! Please pray with and for me that I get some answers to these many issues that have me plagued....thanks for reading!

Be encouraged!

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