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So where to start with my story; well i have always been overweight , even as a child. I have always been aware of my weight problem. I am trying to get a grip of my issues now because i see my own daughter and dont want her to have the same issues. So i pretty have spent the last 16 yrs of my life on diets, weight loss programs and exercise programs etc. I am a sucker and so desperate i have tried so many gimmicky things its sad. I am unsuccessful with many weight loss plans because i dont stick them out long enough, i always give up way too soon. I am a strong and determined woman when it comes to so many things. I quit 6 years of smoking cold turkey and havent been back in 4 years. I know it takes a lot of will power to overcome addictions but me and food just havent been split yet! Since having my daughter i have teetered up and down around the 300 mark for 8 yrs. I want so much more for this life. I want to go run around the yard with my dogs and child. I would love to run in a race. I envision myself doing all these wonderfully active things, but when it comes down to it, i never get there. I havent been to an amusement park in 6 yrs because i no longer can buckle the rides safety belts. I havent taken my daughter because i dont want her to be embarrassed for me. I love roller coasters; the adrenaline rush is awesome. I am tired of living my life looking for weight limits on things or not wanting to sit certain places or do certain things in fear that my weight will be an issue. In March I experienced blot clots in my legs which broke off and went to both my lungs. I spent these past few months telling my hemotologist I am goig to make the change and I am in the same boat as before.My weight is a major factor in this clot disorder and if i can get my weight down so my blood flows better the dr will take me off blood thinners. So after many many years of debate on weight loss surgery i have made the choice! I choose me and my health!!! I have just attended both of my educational classes @ albany med and have my next few appts set up. I am debating on gastric sleeve or the bypass(pouch). I will see what the surgeon says when i get there. Till then I will be doing kickboxing and trying to control intake. To the other side I cant wait to see what that is going to be like!
