chrisalyssaryan
Well, my story is somewhat the same as all of us on this journey. I was never heavy as a child or growing up. I dont think I ever appreciated that I was a normal weight because I always wanted to be skinnier like some of my other friends. I have been with my husband for 17 years (18 in January) and we have 3 beautiful children together. Chris is 13, Alyssa is 10 and my baby is Ryan and he is 2 years old.
After my kids of course, I gained weight. But I joined weight watchers after my 2nd and lost about 40 lbs. and I can remember at that time being so happy and confident with the way I looked and felt. It was an amazing feeling. But slowly the weight came back on and I gained so much more than that since then. I am the heaviest I have ever been and I am so depressed and sad about the way that I look. It effects everything, including my marriage at times. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin and everything I put on looks so aweful and it has gotten to the point that I dont even want to go out anywhere because I dont want people to see me that have not seen me in a while because I am so heavy.
So, I decided since I have tried to lose weight with every diet under the sun - that I was going to finally do something for myself and look into this surgery. I have completed all the necessary testing and I have a tentative surgery date of 10/26. I have to admit that I am SO SCARED and sometimes I want to say forget it. I dont want anything to happen to me - I have my kids to think about - but then I think that I can be a better mother to them if I get this done. I can run with them and play and not be so unhappy.
Well, that's my story. I would appreciate anyone that has ANY advice / comments / stories to please send them. I am a nervous wreck - but I dont want to back out now.
Thanks!! :)
