ckinmeout_2010
Hello to all, I just wanted to thank you for all the support, information, and time you have given out of your lives to have shared everything with me. Your stories, helpfullness, and insight have helped make my journey much better emotionally and physically thus far. All of that has made the fear of the unknown easier baby steps for me. Your sharing, kindness, reaching out to someone you don't even know, and lending your stories and support to me. The baby steps have grown into bigger steps for me and have been a more personal growth, calming of myself, and my perspective of the WLS.
In all the things happening in the world today, I found myself on a daily basis looking more and more forward to being here online, to reach out to you all that have helped make my days.
There has got to be something said when you don't even know someone and they become your support, bounding, and friends overnight with no questions asked. A foundation starts to grow and develop on both sides.
And so I say thanks for all of you, each and everyone of you who are so unique in yourself, your sharing, opening up with so much honesty, and giving of yourselfs.
What is a friend? (One with whom you dare to be naked with) Don't take that the wrong way...for it means what it says. We have opened ourselfs to the most sensitive stories of our lifes and shared them with an unknown person such as myself.
I just want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart... for not knowing me, but still finding it in yourself to care, share, give support, send your hugs my way, and most of all for being a friend with even no pictures to see of me.
I hold you all dear in my hear for everything you have gone through and everything you are. Even your courage to be (naked) haha.
I finally worked on my profile with some family help (lol). I didnt tell you much about me and my journey, but basically my family and friends are my life. I read someone's posting that said "you must love yourself before doing the WLS." That atleast made sense to me, because if I don't like or love myself... anything else in life would not change or matter. I know without (ego) that I love myself and that is why I want to do the WLS. I have always been a giving and nurturing person usually putting everyone before me. Not that anyone expected that, it was just the person I am. I don't fault that in me because I know that is one of my best traits. I still hope in my life that I continue to be that person. However, I know I am going to care and love myself more and make the changes in my life that are needed to feel healthier, stronger, and have more stamina. The rewards of giving of myself were always my inner strength,passion, and heartfelt especially when not expected but returned with no expectations. After all, I guess I am making up for not telling you much about myself (lol).
So my family and friends being my life is why I want to move on in this roller coaster of a journey as so many of you have described.
Starting almost a year ago, I started this journey. Unfortunately I lost my foster sister who lived near me. She always was and is my angel. She was going to be with me on the date of my WLS, however GOD had different plan and I guess He needed her angel wings to be with Him. She was young, vibrant, genuine, kind, and had a smile that made your day. She complained of a back pain and two weeks later was diagnosed with terminal cancer and became GOD's angel only 4 days later.
Then, this past week my daughter Crystal and son-in-law Brad had to put their 2 year old black lab (Mackie - which I called Grma's boy) down. He was diagnosed a few weeks back with a bone tumor in his right hind leg, which turned out to be osteosarcoma (the worst type of bone cancer in dogs). The youngest age that the vets at our vet clinic had ever seen for dogs had been 4 years old.
Because of this, I realized so abruptly how much life can change in the blink of an eye and how I have no control over it. But I know that I have been given the tools, along with the upcoming WLS. I have the chance to do as much as possible with my life, by being held accountable for my choices. Moving forward with the WLS and the rest being in GODS hands.
Obviously, the loss of our loved ones was hard for my family and I. I know that everyone has many stories to tell, and I don't mean to be gready or that my story is worse than others as its not. I just wanted to share with you some of mine. I know some of your stories that you have shared and they are your stories as well. Some of them brought tears of sadness and some of joy. These were your stories you chose to share and to tell. You have been a part of my journey, even when you probably didn't know it.
For those of you with upcoming surgeries I wish you a speedy recovery and Angels watching over you.
I, with some family help finally put a profile and pictures up. This is just the beginning of my journey,thanks for riding along on the roller coaster with me thus far. Hold on tight, I know theride is going to have a lot more bumps ahead for me, but Im going for it on 11.17.09. This is my journey and this is my LIFE.
Hugs,
Mary Kaye
