Dear Wanda, I hope this is not offensive to you. But I'd like to tell you what I have to do when I feel like things will never be better and only get worse. There's an old hymn you may know it "TUrn Your Eyes Upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace." Whatever you focus on will get bigger and bigger. If you can turn your attention to what you have to be grateful for, if you can praise God and Thank Him, He will get bigger and your problems and pain will seem smaller. I don't mean to sound preachy, but sometimes it's all I have to cling to. And God is so faithful. I'm sending this note to you with a prayer of support and comfort. God loves you so much, just the way you are. You were created beautifully and wonderfully in His image. Love and prayers, Melanie Ingle