June BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!

Jun 20, 2012

OK SO I HAVE PUT THIS OFF LONG ENOUGH AND I TODAY I GOD HAD ME TO READ THE BOOK OF GALATIANS. IN THIS BOOK GOD SAID HE WAS CONFUSED WITH MY BEHAVIOR BECAUSE OF HOW FAR HE HAS BROUGHT ME SO NOW WHERE IS MY FAITH. I HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL YESTERDAY FOR MY SECOND ANXIETY ATTACK I REALLY HAVE TO STOP WORRY SO MUCH AND EXERCISE MY FAITH. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WISH I COULD DO BUT FINANCIALLY CANT AFFORD TO. THAT BOTHERS ME ALOT ,MY BIGGEST FEAR IS FAILING MY CHILDREN I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT THEM CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHERE THE MANUAL IS TO KNOW WHEN YOU ARE PARENTING THE RIGHT WAY OR SHOULD I SAY THE SUCCESSFUL WAY. I DON'T KNOW....SOMETIMES I KNOW I CARRY TOO MUCH EVEN WITH WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY MOST PEOPLE I SEE MY SIZE END UP HAVING MORE SURGERY AND THE TUMMY TUCK PROCEDURE SCARES ME THE MOST IT LOOKS PAINFUL NO I'LL SAY THIS I AM POSITIVE ITS PAINFUL WILL MY HUBBY STILL LOOK AT ME THE SAME WHEN I AM SAGGING I PRAY HE DOES, I KNOW I DON'T HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS BUT I DON'T WANT TO LET GOD DOWN BECAUSE WITHOUT HIM I AM NOTHING. SO LORD I GIVE ALL MY ANXIETIES TO YOU TONIGHT .I PRAY THAT TOMORROW IS A BETTER DAY AND THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME EVEN WHEN I DON'T TRUST YOU LIKE I SHOULD.  SO MY SURGERY DAY IS JULY 9TH AT 5AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AND BEGIN AGAIN,

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