crystalreigns79
My story starts like so many other story's on here. I was 5 years old and was taller than all the children my age, so I was tested for giantism, which of course I dont have. But, when I hit grade school I took a real "beating" from the boys for being taller than them. I was a shy child to begin with so their constant ridicule did not make for a healthy self esteem. Soon I started putting on weight. By the time I was in 3rd grade I was close to the 100 pound mark. I remember having a physical fitness test. They took our weight and measured how much fat we had with that little pincher thingy. The look on the man's face that administered my test said it all, he just shook his head and said I had a lot of work to do. This from an adult!
I steadily got bigger, though not horribly big, and my self esteem plummeted, which lead to more eating, which lead to a lower self esteem, can you see the vicious circle that has been my life? By highschool I weighed 230 pounds, refused to do anything in gym due to the constant teasing of my "esteemed" calssmates. I was miserable but thankfully had a very strong core group of friends that made life so much easier.
When I turned sixteen my mom and I moved from California to Texas....not a big mistake but it was really hard on me to leave all of the people I loved soooo much. I made a few friends but the type of people that I would mesh well with I just couldn't find here, they were a little uppity for me! Annnd the weight kept on a coming! By the time I went back to California for my best friends wedding in 1998, one year after graduation, I weighed 307 pounds! It was horrible. If I didnt love her so much I wouldnt have gone. I didnt want to face all those people.
Since then my weight has gotten as low as 245 and as of late, my highest prior to my pre surgery diet, 309. When I got insurance through my new company I immediately started researching the lap-band. But I kept procrastinating, which is one of my worst quailities, and just let it go.
I started the process after my cousin, who is also very overweight, spoke to me about doing bypass surgery together, so we started the process, her's was going to be much shorter, only 3 months diet failure. When I started, my policy was supposed to be one whole year but thankfully they changed they changed the policy to 6 months diet failure!! I have worked very hard and did everything asked of me and I was approved on February 11th 2008 and my surgery is scheduled for March 19th 2008. Unfortunately, my cousin got denied.
This is new beginning for me. It means more to me than I can express. I can already see the difference in the way I approach life everyday, so much more hope, and with great anticipation for what the future holds!
