Slimmer me...here I come!

Jul 22, 2010

So....I've decided to have the Lap Band procedure done.  My insurance covers it (thank GOD!!) and I"ve been contemplating this for a few years now.  I am a single mom, 42, who has gone from being a top state athlete to a big blob of fat.  I think my anxiety somehow contributes to my overeating but I'm not sure how to combat that yet.  My son is 5 years old and has ADHD.  You know he runs me ragged!  Some days its tough to keep up.  He's the biggest reason for this decision.  I want to be able to keep up with him...challenge him....be alive for him!

The second reason is for health purposes.  My mother has had a kidney transplant stemming from diabetes, my aunt has it, my grandma had it and everyone has heart problems.  I'M DOOMED!!!  Unless, that is, I do something about it NOW.  My blood pressure has gone up a bit and my cholesterol is high.  I have recently been diagnosed with sleep apnea and I'm insulin resistant.  I'm really starting to get worried about what might happen!  Heck, my co-worker, only a year older than me, had a massive heart attack over the weekend and died.  I can't let myself go there.

I'm not "officially" morbidly obese.  My current weight is 232.  The last step to my being approved by insurance for this surgery is to do a medically supervised 3 month diet.  Can I just say that the D-word induces the worst kind of anxiety in me?!  Thoughts of restricting my intake make me want to stuff my face.  I think because I never feel "full."  My stomach just is...never hungry but never full.  Its something I'm going to have to re-learn.  I WANT and NEED to re-learn it.

It would be awesome to hear from some of you who've had the lap band procedure and to hear how you felt, how the surgery went, what you can't do now that you could before, etc.  I"ve seen pictures of some of you and I'm just astounded at how wonderful you all look!  This gives me loads of hope and I will continue to turn to this for inspiration when I need it most!

I can't wait to hear from you!

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