Ten months out

Mar 10, 2009

Has it really been 10 months? Hard to believe. Things with WLS get a bit more tricky as time goes on. The honeymoon stages I was warned would end seem to be coming to a close. I'm not losing 25 pounds a month effortlessly, I'm now losing 6-8 pounds a month if I'm lucky. I can't complain with an overall weight loss of 131 pounds in 10 months - that's insane and I'm very happy with that. However, I'm realizing that it's true what veteran WLS'ers tell you - this is no quick fix. It's pretty easy to stall, sabotage, and even regain lots of weight. I know that I have let myself get a bit off track by experimenting with foods that I would not even have dared try the first 6 months after surgery for fear of dumping, death, weight gain, etc. But now that I have tested my boundaries and know that I can basically get anything down without dumping as long as I keep the portions reasonable, I find myself digressing to some old habits which is just plain scary.  A few chips, a few spoons of ice cream, a taste of this and that, drinking with meals, not exercising, etc. Basically, after a while WLS is similar to other diets in that you actually have to follow the plan to be successful. I haven't been doing that the way I should, but I'm resolving to try a bit harder this next month.

On the emotional front...while I've gone from a snug size 28 to a snug 14, I still see myself as quite overweight. In fact, when I see my full body reflection I still think I'm huge. I know this is an issue of distorted perception, but it drives me a little nuts! I'm so lucky to have a wonderfully supportive boyfriend who finds me beautiful and attractive and has never made me feel like I am not wanted and loved at any weight (even at 337 pounds). I know what I need to do - get back to basics. This morning I was 206. I want to reach onederland by my birthday on March 26. I will update you in a couple weeks (when I am 11 months out) and let you know how things go. Here goes!

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