Michelle Forth
1 yr surgiversary Oct 21st . 2010 318 - 142 = 176
Oct 24, 2010
weight 176 My hightest weight was 318 I am down 142 lbs, This is good but I dont eat right and i am soo scared of eating to much i probably graze instead of eating like i should have dont protein drinks since i left my ex in feb, that was the start of my stand still, depression!!! I think to much, I think of all the mistakes I have made especially since the surgery, what would my life b like if I didnt have the surgery? would I have left my husband(ex) ? would I be happy? WOuld I have support that I soo desperately need now? I started as a size 28 I am now in some14,12,10's mostly 12s my legs n belly are still big I look old!!! I jumped into a relationship right after my divorce with some one my family introduced me to.. he is in florida ,,, so now I am in florida and cant find a support group close to me closest is an hr away, Herb has no idea about the surgery, he knows i had it he just doent understand the eating he pushes food and junk on me,,, its very hard!!! he means well, I joined the YMCA but dont go to often because he is sick and needs me to take care of him, I infuse his IVs 3 x a day so cant be gone away to long. I just need a friend close to me to help me and spend time with me, so i can get back on track before it is to late.How do i know what is the average weight that i should have lost at 1 yr with a start weight of 318? the say 50% of your excess weight correct???? if so what should mine be?? If anyone knows please let me know, oh and since I moved to florida and had the surgery and all the other changes in my life I now have to take Ambien to sleep otherwise I stay up n think of regrets in my life since childhood, yup see I need a friend. sorry
Ok time to get in gear, Any one care to help me or is it selffish to cryout for help!!!!
Dont get me wrong 140 lbs is good but i still dont see it, i still see fat n ugly with loose skin.
Is there anyone on here near Dade City Florida????
