DearJohnM
Hello to anyone that is reading this for whatever reason,
My Name is John and I am 29 Years old. I have battled with my weight for as long as I can remember. Throughout my life I have lost a large amount of weight a few different times. I have always managed to put it back on and then some. I can remember back in middle school during football practice being the target of terrible ridicule by my teamates, coaches and even "friends." Boohoo right? If you are on this page it is likely that you have had similar experiences. Well, after playing football in the seventh grade (and by playing I mean sitting the bench) and being given such a hard time about my weight/lack of athletic prowess, I was forever turned against sports of any kind. (to this day I refuse to even watch sports) I begged my folks to let me quit the team mid season, but they refused and wanted to stop me from developing a habit of being a quitter. So in the months following that football season, and the summer after that school year I lost nearly 100 lbs. I came back for the eighth grade feeling like a new person. Slowly but surely the weight came back on and by sophmore year i was back up to about 250lbs. So I was able to survive high school based on personality. I even managed to have fun with a few girls. Well at some point I decided I wanted to be a police officer, and went to college and set out to get a degree in Criminal Justice. While in college I had the misfortune to learn that Beer is fun. This along with my habit of eating from the 4 basic food groups ( burgers, fries, fried chicken, and ice cream) and the lbs started really piling on. When I was about 1 year shy of graduating from college I was up around 300 pounds. I knew that no police department would seriously consider me for the academy when I was that obvioulsy out of shape. So I began another extreme weight loss and got down to about 190. I swore I would never get fat again. The police officer thing didn't pan out for me for other reasons, and I was forced to resign from the Police Department 2 weeks before graduating. After putting over 7 months of blood sweat and tears into the academy and being basically let go, I was devestated. I went out to hooters that night with a friend and ate tons of wings and drank gallons of beer. A few years later Im back up to 305.
I have managed to stay pretty happy considering being trapped in a prison of fat. I have been able to do some pretty good things such as work as a probation officer for about 4 years and even get voted as employee of the year, and given responsibility for sex offenders. When working with drug addicts and alcoholics I always related there dependence on chemicals with my problem overcoming food. I had relatively good success in this career field, however the pay was not so hot, and I gotj involved with and fell in love with a co-worker. She seemed to have a lot of issues and I believe her to be Bi-polar, as she would love me for a few weeks and then want nothing to do with me. She confessed to me once that she had a hard time being attracted to me because of my weight. I caught her lying to me a few times and found out she was secretly involved with other men. Well I had to get away from working with her because it just seemed like everytime the relationship would go from good to bad, my heart would be broken all over again. So I applied and was hired on with the Federal Prison System. This job has so far been pretty good to me. One thing about them is that the insurance they provide is going to cover the DS procedure for me. I am scheduled to have it on 12-21-2010. I am hoping this will be the answer to what has been a Lifelong struggle for me.
