Merry Christmas...with lots of mixed feelings

Dec 24, 2012

I have always loved Christmas.  I love spending time with my family and seeing everyone.  It was a time to enjoy and eat.  I come from a big Italian family so the eating starts on Christmas eve and just continues all day Christmas.  Now things are different.  My dad passed away 5 years ago right before Christmas, I can honestly say he was my best friend.  We worked together every day for 25 years.  So Christmas is different.  I finally get he passing under my belt (kind of...you never get over it you just learn to live with it) I decide to have surgery and start working on "me".  Do I regret it, NEVER! I am doing this for my daughter, I am doing this for me, I want to live and if I continued the way I was going my daughter would not have a mother.  So please, know, I do not regret this.  But it does make Christmas different.  I'm having a really hard time adjusting.

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