Diane K.

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So today is Aug 22, 2009 and I haven't written in a long time..I'm almost 5 months post op..I'm officially down 74 lbs since surgery..well actually since my all time high which was Oct of 2008.  I just can't believe it.  I'm feeling really good for most of the time.  I have been having problems with my hips and having really bad pain, I am also tired often but that's a vitamin challenge of mine..
I have gone from a size 22-24 to an 18, but think soon I'll be in size 16's.  I've also gone from a XXLarg to just xlarge or large, depending on the make and material...it's fantastic.  I am going to start going to the gym more often..I don't like my saggy arms and belly..but hopfully I'll be able to tone that a bit with going to the gym...I'm so happy I got the surgery..it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself...

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  I am tired all the time... but love to take my walks..which is a good thing.  I've lost 13 lbs since surgery and am not a week out yet..so that's cool..alot of it was the fluid weight they put on you the day of surgery..but still I had to lose it.. LOL...
I thank everyone who sent prayers to the bariatric surgery patients.  I know that I had many angels!!!

So I had some frustrating news delivered to me alittle over a week ago.  I was told that due to having to get some extra clearances done (the pulmonary and cardiology clearance) the results were not back to the surgeon's office in time to continue with the March 10th date. 
After about 10 minutes of crying I got over it.  Moving the date to the 24th seemed like it was moved a year away.. or even cancelled.  My appointmens with Dr. Brader and Wendy went very well.  I'm still on weekly weigh in's.. praying that I'll have the strength to keep losing weight before surgery.
Now being 2 weeks and 2 days away, I'm so thankful for getting here to this point.  4 months ago I didn't think I could do it.. and here I am.  I have such support, my family, my coworkers and my friends...It's amazing all the support I have.  I am truely  blessed!!!

So the anxiety has hit full force.  I went to see Greg and Kristin yesterday.  I am doing okay..but my weight loss is not going so well.  My frame of mind is finally good.  I'm ready to get moving forward.  So I'm on weekly weigh ins...I have my pre surgery appointments set with Wendy, Kristin and Dr. Brader.  and if all goes well...I should be having my surgery on March 10, 2009.  I am so ready.  I'm scared, excited, nervous, anxious... and any other word you could use for crazy emotions... but I feel it will be a good start to the rest of my life.  I have so manth post surgery weight loss goals.. I can't wait till I can ride a roller coaster with my girls at Hershey this summer.. I can't wait till my husband can take me for a piggy  back ride and not kill himself carrying me, and my daughters said they can't wait till they can wrap their arms around me when they give me a hug.  Is that not worth losing all the weight in the world for or what. 
My very next goal is to drink much more water during the day, increase my activity level and lose at least 1.5 - 2 lbs per week for the next 4 weeks.

Hello.. so check out my fat pics... I found I avoid looking in mirrors that show my whole body...and I've found that there are not many pictures of my whole body....that will soon change.  I'm really getting into this whole exercise thing.  I'm addicted to Wii Fit.. it's awesome.. you exercise and are playing at the same time..go figure!! hehe..  so back to the pictures... I'm very embarrassed about them.. but I'm among friends on this website so I'm trying to get over that. 

So for Christmas we got a Wii for the family.  We all knew that we wanted a Wii Fit..so we went and got it....and let me tell you.. I was running!!!!!  I was having so much fun burning  calories.. there are step aerobics.. balance exercises.. and it's a game ... so you have fun doing it too!!! it keeps track of your weight.. and you can set goals.. it's amazing.  So I plan on 'working out' for at least 30 minutes a day.. since it's so darn fun!!!

I have found that in the past few months I am more prone to injuries.  I hurt my back by moving wood around in the fireplace.  I twisted my knee by walking up stairs.  These things are not supposed to happen.  I'm looking forward to not having injuries from doing practically 'every day' activities.

 For a Christmas Present to myself, I've decided to make sure that I don't overindulge with Christmas Dinner and the Holiday parties I'm going to go to.  I have started walking more and doing some other exercises which makes me feel so much better about myself.  But I'm still so sleepy all the time.  I'm going to make sure I let my doc now about how tired I am still...even though I'm more active.. maybe it's cause I am more active, not sure.  But anyway...I'm hopeing my doc appointment goes well on Monday.  I weigh in.  I have a holiday party to go to tonight..so I'm hopeing for a lower number on the scale!!!

  Best thing I think I did for myself in a long time was attend my first support group meeting.  I so needed to hear that I was human and that others were having the same struggles that I was having.  I had been told that I just didn't want the surgery enough if I didn't get motivated.. well that's so not true..  I do want the surgery.. but I guess change scares me more than I realize.
I can't wait till the next support meeting.  I hope to attend 2 more before I'm ready for surgery...which I'm really hoping to be by the end of February!!!!

Ok.. I must get my rear in gear!!!  I have not made much progress yet.  I had some setbacks... mainly my personal psyche!!!!  I had to get it into my head that no one can do this for me..it's me or nothing!!  And that's so difficult trying to point all my attention to myself.  I have a loving husband who is also preparing for the surgery.. plus I have three daughters who are incredibly supportive of me. 
Making the changes that I need to make were like a chore to me that I just could not do right away.  Until I lectured my daughter for putting things off.  She has 3 teachers willing to take the time to help her with things and she just doesn't take advantage of it.  And here I am... I have my family doctor, my surgeon, the dietician and the exercise specialist helping me..and what do I do... I sit and add on 3 lbs in the first month.  Anyway.. I've changed my attitude so hopefully I will be posting some losses here in the next few weeks.  I'm shooting for a February or March surgery date!!! We'll see!!!