Life since I last posted

Jan 01, 2009

Where do I start?  I'm in week five of the supervised weight loss program that my ins. requires.  I've lost 12 lbs!  We went to So. Cal to see our kids and grandkids for Christmas. I was hoping someone would say something complimentary.  But no.  Then my daughter Becky gave me a new top for Christmas from my favorite store. It was a size smaller than what I wear. I figured "great I'll have to exchange it". IT FIT!  I guess this is my first "WOW" moment. I actually looked much better in the smaller top.  I've been wearing such baggy clothes thinking it concealed my weight better... however, it also concealed my weight loss.  I know 12# is no big deal compared to what I have to loose.  But it's a big step for me.  I didn't gain one pound over the holidays'. That's a new experience too. 

I keep going back and forth as to whether or not I can lose all my weight without surgery. (125#).  It seems so easy to stick to this program but then it's expensive (the food) and is starting to all taste the same. They talk about maintainence as being more of the same diet and excercise to avoid regain. I guess reality is sinking in for me.  I'm not sure which way to go.  I'll be 63 in February and I don't want the rest of my life to be a constant struggle where weight is concerned. I've decided to meet all the requirements my ins. co and my surgeon require for the surgery and then make my decision whether to go through with it.

My back has remained a big issue. Still restricted from excercising, still get the pain down my legs when I stand too long. The muscle spasms have stopped (TY Jesus) but I still take the muscle relaxers just in case. I've had 1 epidural and 22 trigger injections since the start of Dec. I have also taken more drugs than I've ever taken before.  But I don't want back surgery so I'll keep trying this method. I know losing all the excess weight will help my back as well.

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