Emberbreeze
I have been overweight for as long as I can remember. Looking back at pictures I can definitely see that I was chunky even at age 5 or 6. I've also always been aware that something was "wrong" with me. My family was constantly trying to get me to eat healthier and get out and be active. Some also hid food from me and would criticize everything I put in my mouth, being so young at the time it really instilled in me that I was just fat and not good enough. I went on my first official diet when I was 10 years old; I started attending Weight Watchers with my Mom. I actually lost weight and ended up getting down to a healthy normal weight.
Sometimes I think to myself, why couldn't I just have stayed at a normal weight, what was compelling me to eat so much at such a young age! I don't know the answer to that, but I do know that I gained the weight back. Even after visiting a nutritionist, doing workout videos, gym memberships weight loss pills, more weight watchers, and many diets I gained and lost in a yo-yo pattern for the rest of my life.
Right now I am at my highest weight ever, 300lbs. For most of my life, even though I was overweight, I was still able to move around and be active with little resistance from my body. However, in the last 6mo-1yr my body has started to deteriorate. My knees are constantly sore and stiff, my ankles are swollen most nights after work, my back hurts when I try to lay down at night, and my hip gets sore after sitting for too long at my desk.
I'm only 30 years old and I have my whole life ahead of me! I want to lose this weight so I can stop hiding from social situations, start becoming a healthy active person, and live the life I've been denying myself for the last 20 years.
