EricaLMartin

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STALLING. Every single day no change on the scale. 11 pounds down is a start..but I feel like after 3 weeks into this, & hitting the gym, like I should see the numbers go down a little faster. I'm also frustrated that I've had my period since the day after surgery 3 weeks ago!!! I use the nuvaring & this happen once before, where I spotted for a few weeks between periods & then went back to normal. I feel like I'm having a pity party for myself right now for the following reasons: spotting between periods = no sex w/my husband :( I'm craving foods, not fatting foods, just "lets go out to eat like a normal person" foods. A salad, spinach pie or chowder maybe. I can't eat veggies or fruit yet. I feel depressed or "mourning" over food..& going out to eat, or just stopping at a store for a snack. I guess its all part of getting go of nasty habits. I went to the mall today to get out of the house, I went into my favorite store to window shop for the past 6yrs..Wet Seal! I had a few shirts I found that were just my style (if only I were thin enough to wear them) I bought them as an incentive to stay on track, & with any luck, this stall will break, & maybe..just maybe I can wear a top from WET SEAL for Easter! I hope in a month, & even a yr from now, I can look back on this post & laugh..I'm willing to work the sleeve if it will only work for me! xoxo

Just for the record, my health ticker thingy isn't following my progress. It says error when I try to put my weight in. I'm just getting over a pitty party for myself b/c I had stalled at 8lbs lost after the first 6 days post-op. Well, eight days later, after the scale not moving so soon early on, I'm down this morning, making a total of 11lbs gone since surgery on 1/30/13. I actually feel lighter & happier. I also panicked about never really feeling full when I was on the first 2 wks diet of liquids. Well, that changed quick when I started soft foods 2 days ago. I never in my life thought I would feel full from 2 teaspoons of egg salad, but here I am Which gave me new hope that this is going to work. I don't have to live with that endless hunger feeling that I used too, making me sneak a 2nd dinner while I was out getting movies & my husband didn't know. I would hide my extra food intake all the time. Now I eat something at 3pm & can't imagine how I'm going to eat again for the rest of the day. Amazing. I don't know what I look or feel like at a healthy weight as an adult, & that makes me want to cry..but for once I feel like I just may have a chance to make it happen! I love life & I never want to avoid events or pictures again.