Nathalie R.
This sucks...
May 13, 2010
This is a post that I put in the forums. I just wanted to add a few things to it...So I had RNY surgery on Feb 9, 2010. My first 2 1/2- 3 weeks I was good. I was on a liquid diet. No problems at all. As soon as I started to eat soft foods that is where my trouble began. By Feb 27th i was throwing up everything and by the 28th I could not keep water down. I was re-hospitalized on the 28th until March 5th at Scripps Mercy (where my surgery was done). While I was there I had an endoscopy and found to have a pinpoint stricture. Once I was released on the 5th I ended back in the hospital (Scripps mercy) on the 8th until the 16th... once again I had another stricture. Once home I had an outpatient endoscopy done at Kaiser on the 22nd and was readmitted to the hospital (kaiser) on the 25th, dilated again for the 4th time. I was released on the 30th and was once again admitted on the 2nd to kaiser. I was dilated again so that makes the 5th time... I was at kaiser from the 2nd until the 13th. At this point they refused to dilate me anymore since I was told by the GI docs that if it hadnt worked by the 5th time it wasnt going to work. They were going to send me home on IV nutrition until I could eat or drink. Only problem is they wouldn't dilate me again so that I could eat or drink. So I threw a fit and demanded that they send me to my original surgeon. So once released on the 13th my boyfriend drove me down to San Diego to Scripps Mercy to see my surgeon. He admitted me to the hospital and had me dilated again on the 14th (6th time). I was then dilated again on the 22nd (7th), 29th(8th), and 3rd (9th). I also had my gallbladder removed on the 26th due to developing gallstones in 2 months after surgery. I was released from the hospital on the 5th of May.
So as of now I am at home and driving myself nuts. I am so anxious about my stomach closing with a stricture again that I dont know what to do. My surgeon is great and has talked to me quite a bit since i got home to reassure me and try to help me through this process. I am on an anti anxiety med as of yesterday and it has helped a little. I just dont know what to do. My options if it closes off again are another endoscopy (hope 10th times the charm) or to have a revision. At this point it is my decision on what I want to do. My surgeon said if I am done he will do surgery. It is just up to me. For the most part right now physically I am doing pretty good. Emotionally I am a wreck. I just dont know how much longer I can do this. I am just so done. I cant help but think of the what ifs... I know everyone tells me to just relax and not think of it but being at home alone (boyfriend is at work, but took off Friday and Monday to be with me, he has weekends off) I have nothing better to do than to think of it. The anxiety med has helped me to calm down a little bit and I haven't been crying as much so I guess thats a plus.
I know it may sound silly but I am scared out of my mind with this whole process. I am trying to adjust to being home after a month of hospitalization. It is just so overwhelming and I really dont know how much more of this I can take. I dont regret my surgery... yet, I just wish this hadn't happened to me.
*added stuff* I guess that I have been thinking about this and I am just mad. I am mad that this complication happened to me, I am mad that I have been in the hospital for practically the last 2 months, and I am mad that all of the people who had surgery around the same time as me have been fine. Not that I would wish this upon anyone... since this is a living nightmare. I am so so so very frusterated. I am so done with this whole process. I am happy with the weight loss that I have had I just wish that my road to this loss hadn't been so rough. My surgeon is great, I have talked to him on the phone numerous times and even through emails. It is just emotionally I cant keep on going. I feel like lying down and giving up. I know that I cant but that is how I feel. I just cant help it.
Anywho thanks for reading and letting me vent.
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Oklahoma City, OK
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24.0
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Surgery
02/09/2010
Surgery Date
Oct 22, 2005
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