FaithfullyBeth
I was never that small ever. I went through high school fluctuating from 150-190 between grades 9 thru 12 and stuck around 185 most of the time. When my first son was born I never really lost the weight I gained will pregnant with him so I felt like that 200 mark was some sort of curse and I never seemed to be able to get below it! That was 1995 and I hung out between 200/235 from then until after I had baby #3 where I lost down to around 212 and stayed there for over a year. Got divorced in '03 and melted from anxiety. Back down to 165 and I was so excited!!!! I loved that weight! But it was short lived. The pressure of being a single mom took its toll and slowly but surely my weight crept up to 215 and I honestly don't remember much about my weight during those years, I was too busy to worry about it. I did try every diet pill, weight loss system, fad diet, gym equipment, video tapes, and whatever other miracle cure went across my path for years trying to lose weight up until 2010 when my daughter was diagnosed with juvenile diabetes and I no longer cared about me. I got lost in taking care of her and basically keeping her alive.
In Feb of 2014 the kids father and I reconciled and plan to remarry later this year. My daughter is getting more inline with regular blood sugars and I have had more time to think about myself and my health. I have tried over the last 4-5 years to lose weight, I haven't totally focused on it I will confess and I didn't really remember how or when I got to 300 lbs. After my dr's office added a patient online info portal I was able to go in and read my medical records and notes all the way back to 2005. I was completely shocked to see how my health has declined over the last 10 years! I noticed that in 2009 I went from weighing 221 in Feb to 278 in Oct! (correlates to when my daughter was very very ill and we did not know why, so from 2010-today I have crept up slowly to my current weight this morning of 312 lbs. I have a host of added afflictions beginning around 2010 to this fall and I am now scared to death of my health decline. I know what morbidly obese truly means now. It really took reading that chart to make me see the drastic free fall my health is taking. So I am aggressively seeking what surgery option works for me and am taking my life back. While researching surgical procedures and their reviews I ran across this network and after reading many of the posts I feel this is a good fit for support and encouragement from people who can relate to my journey. Looking forward to making new friends and reaching some goals to add to this story. Let the journey begin!
Beth 
