Fawn, I feel exactly the same way. My surgery is Dec. 30th, but I have this nagging voice in my head that says things like, "What if you're hungry all the time? If you were stronger you'd just stick to a flippin' diet. What if you freak out and find out you're a food addict and you go through withdrawals..." But I'm so fat I can't fit in some restaurant booths, my 14 year old son is embarassed by me, I get winded walking through the mall, blah, blah, blah. So I'm gonna do my best to stick with my surgery date and just be forced to CHANGE myself.