fmjchang
So everyone always told me that I was "chubby" and when I was young it was OKAY. My father and his family always made me eat everything I had on my plate and said it was healthy to be fat.
As I got through that into high school I felt okay to be just a little chubby until I too wanted to be noticed. My mother told me I was fat and I need to lose weight and I did, using the terrible Atkins diet aka NO CARBS. At times it was horrible to not enjoy the things every other Kid does. I went from 125 to 105 in a matter of 2-3 months. Gained about 10 more when I started eating carbs. Then it all went downhill as I began my college experience away from home. The weight gain was from 125 to 130 to 145 to 155 to 165. Then I got pregnant with my son and boy did that kick me up to about 200 lbs. After that my doctor said he wasn't that worried about getting me to lose the weight fast because he was sure that as I kept nursing my son, I would lose the weight. And I ended up losing about 3-5 pounds at most. Later tried diet pills and diets. I have been so tired of all of this. I feel like I'm always starving and the diet pills make me feel like a walking zombie. I am too damn tired to attend to my son the way I should since he is now 2 years old. I am too tired for anything and it too affects my married life. My husband thinks I haven't tried "ENOUGH" to lose the weight. Everytime I do try and work out my knees kill me from my weight. It's like I can't win. This is why I decided to look into the lapband surgery.
