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 Well its been awhile since I have posted anything so I figured now was a good time to update everything.  I am 96 pounds lighter and I do not miss any of those lost pounds GOOD RIDDANCE!  I have learned some things since my last post, the most important lesson I have learned is to stay the hell away from chicken of any kind.  I had some baked chicken that I had made myself at home with ingredient that I am allowed to have and I still had problems.  I felt like there was a ton of bricks in my poor little pouch and I was unable to eat or really even drink for about 2-3 days before I finally decided to give in and go to the emergency room.  When I finally got there they ran all kinds of wonderful tests took all kinds of blood and pumped me full of 3 different types of IV solution.  By the time everything was said and done and I was discharged I had spent almost 13 hours there.  Now on to the fun part of post surgery life... When everyone notices how awesome you look!  This past week has been incredible for me everywhere I go I am getting compliments and I am noticing guys starting to check me out (that hasn't been a regular thing in years for me).  Yesterday my husband's co-workers started making me blush they all were so amazed at how wonderful I am looking now and even told me I looked hot! I am no longer able to buy bottoms at Lane Bryant they are to big for me now and I am in the smallest size bottoms at Torrid now! I get to start shopping at Old Navy  and not have to buy the plus size clothing. I can't honestly remember the last time I went shopping in the "regular" size department of any clothing store.  I am finally down to the size I was when I met my husband 4 years ago.  Its amazing what happens when you get comfortable with someone and you pick up their bad eating habits how quickly weight gets added on.  I still have NO REGRETS about doing the surgery other than I wish I could have exercised self control so that I didn't have to have the surgery.  

 I had my 3 month post op appt on Weds and it went really well. I have already lost 40% of my excess weight!!!  Recovery and life after surgery has been really good.  I had to make my first post op emergency room visit last sunday because I ate something I shouldn't have.  I had dumping really bad to the point I still felt full from dinner on friday by sunday.  The doctors ran a bunch of tests and found nothing wrong physically with me .  I was sent home and put on a liquid diet until I saw the surgeon on Weds.  I am back to a normal diet and being way more cautious about my food choices. Now onto the good news!  I am 78 pounds lighter and having to buy smaller clothes .  I am about 80 pounds away from the drs goal weight!

I am 8 weeks out as of tuesday morning!  The surgery was the BEST decision I have ever made!  I have lost about 57 pounds as of this morning.  I have figured out what foods I can eat and which foods just don't work for me.

I found two wonderful cookbooks at Barnes & Noble, the first one is called Eating Well After Weight Loss Surgery by Patt Levine & Michelle Bontempo-Saray $16.95, the second one is called Recipes for Life After Weight-Loss Surgery by Margaret M. Furtado & Lynette Schultz $19.95.  Both are full of wonderful recipes everything I have tried so far everyone in the house has loved it.  

I have been going to the gym more frequently since about the 5 post op mark.  Yesterday was the hardest I have pushed myself since surgery, I am still really sore from the workout I am hoping I am able to go workout tomorrow at some point.  

I am unfortunately experiencing my first cold post surgery and I must say IT SUCKS!; however it is not slowing me down any I am just more tired at the end of the day now.

 I am having some food battles I think most of it is mental though.  I am eating and finding that most things agree with me and my pouch.  The main problem I am having is I am feeling like its a waste of time, energy, & money for me to eat right now.  I am only able to take a few small bites of food and then I am full.  I am starting to feel slightly depressed about it and having second thoughts about having the surgery.  I know deep down inside I did the right thing by having the surgery it is just becoming incredibly hard for me to deal with the afterlife right now. Soup seems to be the easiest thing for me to eat and actually enjoy, chicken seems to be the hardest.  While eating the chicken my stomach feels like it is fighting with itself and I start feeling some pressure and after I get up from the table and walk around for a bit start feeling better.  The sights and smells of some food bothers me and makes me want to vomit .   I can't stand watching other people eat large meals anymore and I am amazed that I used to be one of those people.  I have no idea how I was able to keep up with my husbands eating prior to my surgery.  This weekend he has been really good about sharing meals with me while we are out which has gotten him to eat slightly less but I know when we get home that will all change and he will go back to his bad food habits and over eating.  He is considering on having bypass surgery and I will support him as much as he has supported me but I don't think he has the will power to be a success story.  Until next time!

 Yesterday made 1 month post surgery for me.  For the most part I have been doing really well.  I am already on my 2nd Disneyland trip, on my soft food diet and down a total of 48 pounds from my heaviest.  I am having issues with food mainly when I eat I don't think I am taking enough time to eat my super mini meals.  I have had 2 mini dumping incidents in less than 10 days.  Yesterday was worse than the 1st time.  I eat some gilled chicken with some cheese I made the mistake of getting it from McDonalds ( I know very STUPID of me!).  As soon as I was done eating I started feeling stomach pains and cramps I went to the mall about 10 miles away with my husband and by the time we got to the mall I had to run into the restroom and I threw up a very small amount most of it was a white foamy liquid.  I went through the mall and while I was trying on some clothes I felt like I was going to throw up again so I finished what I was doing in the store and ran back to the restroom and threw up the remainder of what I had eaten.  Looking down at it I noticed there was an oily texture to what I threw up which was a nice punishment for me.  I am trying to teach my husband how to eat better and I can't be eating drive-thru crap like him and still feel well.  After the mall incident we came back to our hotel room and I ordered a cup of chicken soup from room service and mainly ate the broth and some of the veggies and it made me feel so much better.  I am so cautious when I am at home as far as food goes but when I am out of town I get this stupid careless streak and try things I know I shouldn't and then I get sick.  Hopefully I will stop as of last night!  I am still walking alot for exercise I just joined 24 hour fitness and when I get back home I will be making the gym part of my daily routine.  I have not gone back to work yet but I am planning on going back to this week to my volunteer job.  So I hope that someone learns a valuable lesson from my stupidity NO FAST FOOD EVER!!!

 My husband was nice enough to take me to Disneyland for a combination celebration of Valentines day and my birthday.  Everything for the trip had been going fine until we went to dinner tonight.  We went to a place called Hook's Pointe at the Disneyland Hotel and I asked for a kid's menu and was given one by the hostess.  When our waiter finally showed up after we had been sitting there for about 15 minutes with out as so much as a glass of water on our table we were ready to order, I tried to order kid's salmon.  The waiter then tried to argue with me about ordering something off the kid's menu and told me that he would charge me double and make an adult size portion.  My husband and I then tried to argue with the waiter and tell that I could only eat small portions, the waiter just kept arguing with us, finally my husband said that I had the weight loss surgery and that was why I wanted to order something so small.  We finally started telling the waiter we wanted to talk to the manager and he then said ok and took our order and let me order my kid's salmon.  When the food finally arrived I started eating and only was able to eat a few bites and then I was full.  The waiter came back to check on us and see if we needed anything when he saw my plate he was worried and asked if everything was ok, I told the waiter that it was fine and I was full he cleared the plates and brought back the bill.  We paid our bill didn't tip the waiter since his service was so HORRIBLE and he was so STUPID! We never ended up talking to the manager at the restaurant, however my husband was so angry that he went to the hotel manager and complained to her and was assured that the waiter would be talked to.  The more I thought about how the whole dinner went the more upset I got.  I ended up being so angry I was starting to take it out on my husband who did nothing wrong, when I realized what I was doing I started crying.  After I cried for a few minutes and finally realized the whole incident was not my fault and I should not have to justify to anyone why I want to order small portions.  I started feeling better.  I hope I never have to deal with anyone as stupid as this guy ever again. 

 So yesterday was my 1 week anniversary, my life has so what returned to "normal" .  I am driving and ready to go back to work.  As of this morning I have lost 12 pounds since surgery and a total of 22 pounds since 12/14/09. I am not really seeing the weight loss in my physical appearance as of now however I do notice my wedding rings are looser now that they have been in a long time. I am so excited to see where I will be in a month from now.  I wont lie recovery has been incredibly hard!  My muscles still hurt in my abdomen and I still have some difficulty bending over to tie my shoes.  I am getting incredibly bored of the liquid diet of soup & pudding . I am still 1 week away from my first post op.  Yesterday I went for a walk around my neighborhood and ended up walking .65 miles  that is the furthest I have walked since before the surgery. Still patiently fighting the fat 1 day at a time.

 woohoo I get to sleep in my own bed tonight!  I am officially discharged and just waiting for my ride to take me back to San Jose from Palo Alto lucky for me its really not that long of a drive.  My pets are going to be so happy to see me too bad I wont be able to play with them of pick any of them up they all exceed my 5lb weight limit.  So far overall this hasn't been horribly bad I was freaking out the night of the surgery asking my husband if I did the right thing and to remind me again why I put myself in as much pain as I did.  He reminded me I did it for my health and so we could have a family in the near future.  So on with the battle to fight the fat and become a more healthy skinny me 

 So I am 2 days post op and I am still in the hospital and in alot of pain.  I feel like I have been ran over by a train.  Most of my pain is isolated to the lower left portion of my abdomen.  There was mention yesterday of sending me home today but I am going to try to fight to stay in the hospital for at least 1 more day.  I have been doing ok on the keeping up with my liquids, the lemonade is nasty in the hospital so I have been living on green jello and chicken broth along with water and ice chips.  My IV was removed this morning, I still have the drain in my abdomen which is still catching drainage.  Today is the first day I have really felt hungry since Tuesday.  I have learned it hurts to cough, take deep breaths, burp or hiccup.  I have been trying to get comfortable in my hospital bed and it is almost impossible the simplest task seems to be impossible.  Attempting to slide up in the bed to sit up more is almost impossible. 

 So here it is the night before surgery.  I have amazingly survived on the bland clear liquid diet today.  I am already so sick of jell-o and broth.  My surgery is scheduled to start at 7:40 am at Stanford Hospital in Palo Alto.  At this moment I am not nervous about the surgery I have complete faith in my medical team. Of course I am sure when tomorrow rolls around I will be freaking out but I know everything will be ok.  I will try to keep blogging while in the hospital providing my husband brings me my laptop.  So thank you to all the support and compliments everyone has given me on here it means alot to me and has helped me mentally get to where I am now.  I am so ready for the next step towards a healthy life.  I am so excited to see where my weight will be in 6 months from now.  Attacking the fat one step at a time.