GigiT
My Story - Growing up I was an average size kid. I was very active always playing outside, riding my bike, swimming all the joys of being a child. However our family had poor eating habits. I would take a handful of cookies and eat that while playing and when the donut guy would come around I ate cupcakes and nothing but tons of sugar. My breakfast was a cup of coffee full of sugar and cream with about 5 pieces of Wonder Bread (toasted with American cheese). My friend Leslie would tease me and say I was going to grow 12 ways as the Wonder Bread advertised, no joke!!
Fast food was a dream meal. Now my mother made some of the BEST Puerto Rican food ever but it was full of fat, carbs...it tasted so good. How I stayed slim was really a miracle. My parents worked long hours and was never really there to monitor my food, my older sister and brother babysat me and they were teens who also ate junk food.
Stay within my weight range all through my teens. I have always been a shapely girl but never fat. I was married in my early 20's and stayed at a size 9 with three kids...I was active with them. Then when I hit 40's I ballooned! I never noticed how big I was getting. In my head I didn't see fat...I liked to dress and was always well groomed so the problem I had with weight was masked by pretty clothes, in my HEAD. When I would see pictures or take a glance of myself in a store window my spirit would drop. I went on so many diets of every kind; I would lose only to regain it all back and plus.
I had once asked my daughter the question all women have asked, "Do I look fat in this dress?" My daughter said to me, "Mom how do I really answer that, if you are fat then won't all dresses make you look fat?" Smart Aleck, LOL!
Now in my 50's I am still heavy for my height and bone structure. I have never given up the desire to lose weight. I was never one to say, "this is just me" because it is not, I'm fat and unhealthy and this needs to stop! But its so funny that when I get dressed for work that evil twin in the mirror tells me, "see you're not so bad" But now I say back , "oh yes I am!" I am so lazy with no energy to want to do anything. Although I'm at 208 today (thanks pre-op diet) that is still 78 lbs that I am carrying.
Surgery is set up for 11/25/2013 with Dr Barnes. I'm ready to start my journey to lose this weight, get off meds, get energy and live the rest of my life as God had intended it to be. HERE WE GO!!!!
