So disappointed....

Feb 18, 2013

I should be having my surgery right now.  But, I'm not!  Dr. Nick called last Thursday and on my Upper GI, they found that I have intestinal malrotation.  It's a birth defect where you intestines don't form correctly.  Apparently, it has been that way my whole life and it explains all my tummy issues.  It is very rare to find it in adults.  He said typically it is only discovered once you are bleeding to death due to a twist or blockage in the intestines or after death in an autopsy.  Now they check all newborns for it and fix it right away but I guess not so much 35 years ago!  So, tomorrow I am going to see a specialist to see what can be done to fix the issue.  Dr. Nick said that I need to have a surgery to have it repaired and then we'll start the WLS process over again.  So, I'm guessing that is good news.  I mean, I think my biggest fear is not being able to have WLS at all.  I know it is crazy to not be worried about 2 major surgeries but if that is what it takes to get healthy, I'm in.  I am mentally so ready for WLS that this is just a bump in the road for me. I want WLS and will do what is needed to get there.  Besides, it doesnt' sound like I have much of an option with this intestinal thing.  Apparently, I'm a ticking time bomb just waiting for my intestines to either knot up or get a blockage.  Crazy, huh?  I know that it is totally a God thing that they found this and I know He has a plan for me in all of this.  But, I'm still really sad today knowing how close I was to getting to hit the reset button today.  It is kinda silly but I had a good cry this morning.  I was just so ready for this.  Not to mention that I was 10 days into the pre-op liquid diet.    It is what it is and I can't change it so I'm just going to keep moving forward and hope that my malrotated intestines aren't a deal breaker for WLS.

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