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well this past weekend has been a whirlwind of emotions. First, I thought I could just walk through the grocery store no problem. I keep telling myself that theres no temptations...but i didnt want it at all!!  when I got home, I was a bit snippy with my hubby. Then started sobbing to myself. Why couldnt i have all those things? I didnt crave them its just the fact that i couldnt have them. all i seen was bakery muffins and yummy cookies. Arghhh Why couldnt I have them? After my cry I was basically fine. I talked to bob about it and he could feel the tension coming from me in there. I have to go in there again today.... dun dun dun... Im so frigin blocked up havent slept in like 2 days. It hurts. I tryed chloryphll but that doesnt really work for me. I need to try some prune juice and or Activia. I am also so sick and tired of the same crap food. pureed this and pureed that! Why cant I be normal again? i know there will be a day where I can enjoy chicken again and be happy.
My focus these past few weeks have been on frontierville. I know how basic but it keeps me busy without taking my little energy I have left. tonight is support group I sooo want to go, but bob started his new union Company today and i want to be here when he gets home. Although I need this for me, to go. Bob barely is letting my drive again so i dont know if Im going? tomorrow night is Dennis deyoung in concert at Beaumont park. A great reward for me, and free as well!! I love my town. Well thats ll for now. i want to go to bed, but being constipated hurts soo much I feel it in my lower gut and my back. Argh when will it pass through???

Its Monday and its during my first week out. Having the Bypass with Removal of my Gallbladder is different than I expected. I didnt have all those emotional things like buyers remorse or regret. Ive been preparing for this for a year now and have been through all that prior. The hardest part is the gas!!! In the hospital no matter how far or long I walked i couldn't pass gass. Burping  only thing. That first night home passed gas at 12:45. I know exactly when things happen because Im journaling my food and how I feel. Today at noon took my first BM. I was stoked!! Im on Darvocet, and drinking apple juice is a double whammy for constipation, but mine was anything but. Im drinking lots so its helped.
Im still hurting and weak sometimes. My DH brought down a twin bed so I dont have to conquer the stairs all the time. I tried going up Sat am to take a shower and it totally wiped me out. So now i know my limits. Now On I have all my supples downstars.So I can take a shower downstairs without wipping me out again. As for food, I found out water and store bought jello was way too heavy fr my new tummy. I can tolerate apple juice and choc protein shakes from Costco. There called Premier Choc protein. Very healthy for ya too!  Hope I get some needed energy soon and so I can workout and drive again. The simpliest thing takes my energy. My first dr appt post-op is Thursday. My mom is bringing me because Im still on pain meds and cant handle to drive just yet. I will give an update Thursday!


 

Im in the mist of getting packed and ready but wanted to stop by and give an update. i am scared and nervous but know that its all normal. i found out they are taking my gallbladder. Heard its more common than we think. Im so nervous that i woke up with a cold sore on my lip... How frigin embarrassing, but what can i do now?? I will be on the loser bench before then end of the day. Well last night drinking the magnesium citrate was interesting. I chilled it in the fridge before drinking it. I found out if you drink more than a few sips it will come back up. Tasted horrible but chased it with my liquid protien drink. All I have to say NEVER trust a fart!!! OMG! Its horrible. Well got to run!! I have to remember today Phillippians 4:13   I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me. Will give an update on Saturday