Grammo
An Orphaned Goddess
May 15, 2010
I have not posted much, though I try to stay caught up on the reading, as much as possible. I get so much information, hope and inspiration from this web site. I have been unable to do any reading for the last couple weeks. Trying to catch up now. I have loved the coverage of the Caro and Anne wedding. I needed the glimpse of such joy and great friendships. I am saddened to read of the loss of Sharyn's mother and Rhonda's mother, a pain I'm sharing now.We were scheduled to make our spring time return to our Nashville home when the great flood hit Music City. Our return was delayed while we waited for interstates into town to reopen and to have access to where we live once we could get into town. During that time I learned my mother had been moved into hospice care up north where I grew up.
Our home was spared but our income producing properties (our ONLY income) took a huge hit. We just learned today that we may not be allowed to repair two of the houses. There is a possibility the area will become a greenway.
When we were finally able to be on the road home to Nashville I received a phone call that I immediately needed to go "home" to my childhood home if I ever wanted to talk to Mom again. I tried to catch a flight along our route, but I was always just behind the last flight out, so we drove on in to Nashville and the horrendous sight of so much devastation. We got in at 2:30 A.M a week ago on Wednesday and I was on a plane North at 6:30 a.m.
Mom left us on Mother's Day. That's my glamma, dramma, mamma! She made sure we would never forget her on Mother's Day! She was not sick, per se, she just decided she was tired of living and I swear to goodness, she had a timetable for her exit. Hospice is incredible and I thank God for them. I remained with my family for the next several days, just taking care of the business of dying, and being together and processing the event. I returned home to Nashville last night.
In the meantime my poor husband was left in Nashville to deal with all the mess. On better note, the volunteer presence in this town has been awesome! My husband was helped by Titan's quarterback Vince Young and three other Titans who worked their nice tight butts off helping him gut a house. There are thousands of volunteers from all walks of life and parts of the country who have really turned it out for Nashville. The Red Cross drives through the damaged areas every day with hot meals for the folks who are trying to work on the mess. Others come through handing out snacks, fruit, bottled water. A local bread company here is bringing fresh, artisan breads every day. FEMA seems to be doing a great job. Dear young friends of ours who lost everything have already had their FEMA inspections and got their permits and aid approved and construction will begin this coming week. And through the generosity of their co-workers and many friends, everything going back in their house will be upgrades from what they had before. FEMA workers canvas the damaged neighborhoods daily making sure people are filing their claim forms as needed.
While away from home, my "routine" has been off. I have not eaten well and I was slipping a bit in my supplementing of vits and calcium. My loss has been super slow of late. I know my body has to eat MORE to lose, but I have not had much appetite. I have been really pushing my protein today, even did a couple shakes and a bar, not my usual routine. But I feel weak and drained.
I have not had a big melt down yet, but I know it is coming. I have just sort of been on auto pilot in the emotional department. There were others around, more fragile than me, and I guess I have felt a need to "stay strong."
I am comforted to know my mother is with my father and sister who left us so long ago.
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About Me
Nashville, TN
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18.4
BMI
Surgery
08/11/2009
Surgery Date
May 17, 2009
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