gregg glader
I feel like an addict who is volunteering for withdrawal/detox. I know that I'm a food "addict", though more probably correct to say psychologically dependent. The RnY surgery will create a body that cannot tolerate what my mind has been dependent on. Can I deal with that? Will I be miserable all the time? Will I lose out on a few of my most favorite things (Lobster in butter, Beef Stroganoff? Chocolate? Good Coffee?) IN LIFE? ................OR...................Will I feel 20yrs younger just by being 150lbs lighter? Will I anxiuosly watch the clock coz I can't wait to get on the tennis court? Maybe even play tournaments again? Will I be active and more fun (for me & others) at family picnics and outdoor events? Hey, next winter maybe I'll go out west skiing for the first time in 20++ years!! With my surgery still almost 4 weeks away, I'm nervous....uncertain.....concerned.....a bit scared.....but also excited!! anxious!! happy!! and looking forward to shedding this 150-200lb "coat of armour" that I've been wearing 24 hrs a day for 20 years, NERVOUS...SCARED......HAPPY........EXCITED
just developing "my story"
don't know what's around the next corner
more later.......
