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Thankfully some good news...
Jan 14, 2010
Well, at best I can say that 2009 was by far the most difficult year of my life. I experienced more sadness and heartache that I ever knew was possible for a soul to endure. Lost both of my parents within 11 months and 2 days of one another and if I am being honest, will admit that Ive quite honestly been numb most of the year. By far the best thing that happened to me was my surgery in October. It helped me focus after losing my Father, remembering how excited he was at the thought of me losing weight and having children. Each and every day I knew that I was going to do whatever it took by any means necessary to have this surgery be nothing shy of a success even when my doctor doubted my decision to do lap band over bypass, I pressed on and it was the best decision made all year. Today, I went in for my second fill. I hit my 80lb weight loss, which was amazing. I had lost 17lbs since my last visit and because of all the weight loss they were a little hesitant to do a fill on me at all but decided to try .5cc's. Its so rewarding when they are so excited about my progress at my docs office. I a much needed laugh today when I walked in the receptionist Miss Kathy who always greets me by name, had to ask who I was. She said she didn't even recognize me, and that made my day. At my Mother's funeral I had more people than not that walked right by me. I guess with the weight loss and my new red hair I do look quite different and I feel different, I am truly an even better version of who I was. I have always loved who I am on the inside, but was frusterated when that didn't match what my mirror showed on the outside. Its been some time since I wrote anything in detail, as I said Ive just really been numb but somewhere deep down I'm finding more and more of a desire to push harder and focus more on health and well being. My original goal was to lose 100lbs in six months, but I have now decided that I want those remaining 20 gone by March 1st which will be six weeks earlier than my original goal. Steep goal, yes especially knowing the weight loss will slow down but that wont stop me from being driven to accomplish it. With my relationship and faith in God, and the wonderful support of loved ones I have made it through what hopefully is the worst year of my life, so further weight loss in my opinion... looks easier now to conquer than it ever has!
