A look back 7 years.... going forward

Mar 20, 2009

Yesterday was my  7 year anniversary of my WLS.  It feels like another lifetime ago.  I look at my before picture at 305 and I see the pain in my face, the shame in my heart, and  the swollen feet. I was one year post divorce after a 19 year marriage at that time.  Would I have the surgery again?  Yes although if it were today,  I might research less invasive procedures like the lap band.  That was very new and experimental  7 years ago.  I have changed my life.  I have kept all but a nasty 25 lbs off.  I hate those 25 lbs as they remind me of the helplessness I felt before WLS.  Then I remember.... hey.... your just like everyone.... you have a nasty 25 lbs to lose,  you need to go to the gym before etc and I get off my own back.  Health wise,  My ulcer has been healed and has not returned.... Jinx, double jinx, knock on wood, salt over the shoulder  lol.  I do have osteoporosis on bone scan, however I am not sure that is a product of malabsorption as Menopause.  I have changed jobs and now teach in a high school for teen parents.  I feel challenged and sometimes frustrated.  Much like everyones life. 
I realize, I still have some of the demons.  I still desperately want to eat when i am stressed or upset.  Guess that demon was not cut out with my surgery :).  I have 3 great kids,  2 in college and one in high school.  I think they are proud of me and  I am closer to them then I could of been when I was that "other" Hedy.  I have a wonderful boyfriend who has my back and supports my goals and my dreams.  7 years later.......   Would I do it all again?   Absolutely  and now.....  my eyes will face front, and I am continuing this journey..... forward.   Smiling.

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